Cynthia Groves Obituary

Dear Cyndi: Another year gone by. I feel it was yesterday, and yet, sometimes it feels forever. As long as I live, I will never forget the day I met Carol and she told me that you went to heaven. Even though I did not know you or your Mom, my heart broke for you. I read all the msgs your Mom sends you and they are so beautiful. I feel the same way she does about my son. I hope you met him because he will keep you smiling every day. Please give my Clint and my Chipper a hug for me. Tell them how much I miss them, and dear Cyndi, someday I will hug you myself. May the angels wrap their arms around you!!

Hi, Cyndi -

I can't believe how time has flown by. Today is the 19th anniversary of your going home to God. On one hand, it feels like you've been gone so long. And on the other hand, it's as though you only just left yesterday. I still think of you every day, and I still speak to you every day. So, you know how very much you are still loved and missed by me and your sister. I appreciate your still sending us your love and positive energy from the other side of the veil. Connor is doing well with his home schooling and is looking forward to our summer vacation soon. Universal Orlando Epic Universe! We're all looking forward to that. We know you'll be there with us sharing the adventure. We can feel your presence and know when you're with us. Marcus has been with us since January and doing well at his landscaping job. He's still progressing with his adulting and is enjoying being with his family. Please keep watching over him and helping him make good decisions. And Jessica will soon be launching her new business venture as a mystery shopper. She'll be perfect at it and will be extremely successful. As for me, I know you had a hand in the new job that I've begun. It's a position that I've wanted and been waiting for two years to have. It was fortuitous that the job became available suddenly and my start date was today. I know it was a gift from you, my beautiful, loving daughter! As always, we want you to keep enjoying your glorious, wonderful life on the other side. We know that you're very busy and that you have a fabulous social life there with friends and loved ones. And we know that all of our beloved pets that have passed over are still with you. I still especially miss Tomoe and Rachelle. We Love and miss you, and soon enough we'll all be together again in God's house. In the meantime, please keep sending us your love and energy and communications. Especially, keep sending me your opinions and comments. You, Jessica, and I still have the same sense of humor, and we look at the crazy events and activities of our fellow humans on this side of the veil with the same sense of amusement and irony. Things may seem scary right now for so many people, and they think that war is imminent, but we know that all will turn out well in the end. Good always wins over evil. And the Light always conquers the Dark. So, bye for now, my beloved daughter. Big hugs to you, Honey, and lots of love, love, love!
--- Mom

Hi Cynthia - it's your 19th birthday in Paradise. So hard to believe so many years have sped by so slowly. As you are aware there was some delay once we moved to Arizona in getting to the going out to explore part of the plan. We are just starting to explore a bit. We went with your mom to the Mini Time Machine Museum in Tucson - that was surprisingly interesting, informative, and a joy to see - it was a vast variety of miniatures.

Our floors are all done and repaired and we are starting to finally get everything organized and in order. The triple digits have hit so there isn't a lot of travel planned just yet but we do hope to go to a lavender farm with your mom soon and a olive farm we found too! Your mom is keeping busy and Margaret and I usually prefer to go out during weekdays. There is a new COVID variant that is more contagious than previous variants and now we have measels making a comeback along with norovirus, flu, pneumonia, RSV - so many airborne illnesses...we pray our masks will continue to protect us.

I introduced your mom to a bingo parlor I found nearby - we hope to go to that again very soon! Your mom won! Now she needs to win more! LOL

Thank you for watching over all of us this past year - especially for watching over your mom, Jessica, Connor and Marcus (as you know he is back at your mom's and doing well). If you have time I'd appreciate if you could give my parents a big hug - and my Grandma Heffley and Pappy Toots. We all miss you here...and always will.

Carol

Dear Cyndi: As usual, I'm late again. I can't believe it's been 18 years since Carol walked into my office, about 2 weeks after we met, and told me she had to fly to Arizona to be with her friend Sam. She told me about your passing and even though I did not know you, I was terribly saddened by your loss. Since then, Carol and your Mom have been dear friends. We met at the most terrible time with your passing, but I believe you brought Carol and your Mom to help me. I lost my husband in 2000 and I truly needed friends to lean on. I know that you must have met my son Clint and I know he must be making you laugh. That's what he did best. Dear, beautiful, sweet child. May God wrap his arms around you and my beautiful boy.

Hi, Honey -

Today is the 18th anniversary of your passing over and going home to God. Can't believe how quickly time has flown by. Can't believe that it was 18 years ago that I last spoke to you on this side of the veil. Of course, the passage of time hasn't made me, or your family, miss you any less. I still think of you and speak to you every day. You are still a beloved, precious part of our lives. Jessi, Connor, and I had a wonderful little brunch at the English Rose Tea Room in Carefree today, wishing you were there to enjoy it with us. It's a beautiful place that we've grown to love. You would have loved visiting it and enjoying the Victorian decor. You know that Lissette and her sister, Cathy, came into my life in July 2006, shortly after you left. Dear little Lissette, who reminds me so much of you. They were gifts from God. The first time I went to the English Rose Tea Room was to celebrate Cathy's birthday, which is May 9th, 3 days before your birthday, several years ago. We've been there many times since. And each year, we celebrate Cathy's daughter, Janet's birthday, on June 23rd. She turned 19 today. And your cousin, Amy Marie, in Florida celebrated her 36th birthday today. Happy occasions tied to this date. So, just as we remember and share our memories of you every June 23rd, we can also share the joy of Janet's and Amy's birthdays. And as we celebrate, we think of you and share those life experiences with you. I know that you're living a full and joyful life there on the other side. But we're still connected to you through our love and memories. We love you and miss you so very much, my beautiful daughter. And whenever you're not too busy, please continue to send messages and signs to let us know you're thinking of us, too.

Love you, Cyndi!

---- Mom

Hi Cyndi...and will wonders never cease - I'm actually on time to wish you a Happy Anniversary - I know it's a bit ironic - but I know you and all those that have crossed over are happy there even though those of us that have yet to cross await joyful reunions with all on your side of The Veil. Well...your mom, Margaret and I STILL haven't had a chance to go exploring - we thought we would have the time this year but then Margaret and I got surprised with a floor install mishap - so now exploring has to wait while we pack up, move out and get floors in both homes replaced...SO...we are looking forward to exploration in 2025! We will NOT fail! LOL...if you can't laugh at all this you may as well find a padded room and rubber vest right? Your mom is doing quite well as is Jessie and Connor...Marcus from what I understand has gone back to Colorado to find and explore his best life - keep an eye on him okay? Give everybody I know a big hug up there...Have a great and Happy Anniversary - 18 years - where did the time go? Hopefully your mom and I will find time in a couple of years maybe to get back to Hawaii and see if your name is still in the whale on the lava bed? I can keep my fingers crossed for that - right?
Love,
Carol

Hello to my beautiful daughter, Cyndi -

Today is the 17th anniversary of your passing. On this day in 2006, you went home to God and have been there watching over us, and still participating in our lives. You know how very much you are loved and that not a day goes by that we don't think of you. I'm still talking and joking with you every day. And you know how much your baby sister, Jessi, misses not being able to joke with you. When Jessi, Connor, and I are out doing things, going to the movies, shopping, or just having fun, we know that you're with us. We can feel your beloved presence. And we can just imagine what you'd be saying and sharing your opinions and feelings. Reminds me so much of when you and Jessi were growing up. It was always the three of us doing things together. Me and my two bright, beautiful daughters. Take care of all of our beloved pets that are over on the other side with you. I especially miss Tomoe and Rachelle. My two favorite cats. I miss them, and our family dogs, Bristol and Angel, too. And give all of our dearly departed family members who are with you "over there" our love and big hugs. Your 48th birthday was on May 12th. Hard to believe I'm old enough to have a daughter that would have been almost 50 years old. LOL I know that you're still forever 30 years young on that side of the veil! As always, please send your love and good energy to Marcus and Connor. You're always going to be a great influence on them. Your dad and I love you and miss you, Honey. Big, big hugs to you!

--- Mom

Cyndi,

Where has the time gone...29 years ago? Has it been that long? I hope you know that even though so much time has passed, you are still missed and thought of. You were an amazing friend. My only regret is losing touch. See you on the other side, friend.

Hi Cynthia...it's been a long 3 years since I've written...but not a day goes by without thinking of you. You remain in my prayers daily. If you've peeked in you know I've moved near your mom...she, Jessie and Connor are all doing great and I'm grateful to be close to my best friend (along with Margaret who moved too). We haven't had much time to tool around yet...we plan on being the 3 Muskateerettes once a few more medical issues with me are settled...then the fun can begin! I'm actually on time this year to wish you a happy anniversary on your crossing over to your life there where you can watch over all those you love so much. You are still missed so much...and still loved dearly by all who ever met you. Have a wonderful anniversary until we can all meet again where you are...thank you for watching over us all!

Every year, especially around this time, I think of traveling on the backroads of Widefield and Security with you as you needed to track the moon for your astronomy class. Then we would head to the arcade for a little while to play pool. Fond days with a good friend. Miss you still!

Dear Cyndi, I am so late with this message and so deeply sorry. My son Clint went to heaven on 19 Sept 2020. I am very heartbroken as I write this. I hope that you meet my beautiful son and give him a hug for me. He is very funny and will make you laugh. Happy Birthday beautiful girl. I know that everyone who loves you misses you dearly.

Dear Cyndi,
Again I'm late for your birthday, but I'm sure it was wonderful being with Jesus. I read all that you accomplished in your life. Wish I had the pleasure of meeting you, but I know that someday I shall. I read the messages that your Mom sends you filled with so much love. I know that you can feel the love she sends you, and I'm sure she can feel the love that you send to her. I haven't seen your Mom in a while, but when Carol moves to Arizona, maybe I'll be able to visit the both of them.
Beautiful angel.....give my Chip a hug from me.

Dear Cyndi...well in true me fashion it's been a while...and I'm late wishing you a Happy Everything (most recently birthday and (can it be I'm on time!) tomorrow's anniversary)...but if you've been peeking in you know why...getting so much done in order to finally move toward moving...not a day goes by that you are lacking in my prayers... as you know I saw your mom back in November and we went to a favorite place...the San Xavier Mission...so peaceful there...so beautiful. The only thing missing was you and your sense of humor. I wish I had more time to write but work calls. I hope you had a wonderful birthday back in May - and that you had one hell of a celebration up there on the anniversary of your crossing over...hard to believe tomorrow is 14 years since you were here...you are missed a great deal...which is a reflection of how greatly you are loved.

Merry Christmas, Cyndi!

We're all celebrating the birth of the Christ child today. I have no doubts that the celebration on your side of the veil is spectacular! With the troubled times that folks are going through here on the earth plane right now, the lessons that Christ came here to teach us all are that much more necessary and significant. For me personally, as you know, it's been an amazing year. So many huge blessings for me to count. And I know that 2020 is going to be really great for me, your sister, Jessi, and your nephews. As always, keep sending your positive energy to Marcus and Connor. And keep Marcus in your thoughts and prayers as he continues to navigate the trials and tribulations of young adulthood. He's a good kid with a good heart. Help him to realize that on his journey of self-discovery. I've had a wonderful time playing Santa Claus to my friends this Christmas. And I know that you had a hand in helping me find the perfect gift for Lissette's girls. They are going to enjoy that huge dollhouse for a long time to come. Brought back wonderful memories of the first dollhouse your dad and I bought for you when you were 6 yrs old. We spent all night that Christmas Eve putting that Barbie Dream House and the Dream swimming pool together for you. The fact that I was 8 months pregnant with Jessica at the time made the task even more challenging. But your delight that Christmas morning seeing the dollhouse and all of the other presents made it so worth it. As usual, this is the time of year that I especially miss you, my beautiful daughter. I remember how you would come home from shopping with bags and bags of goodies, half of which were for me. You were always thinking of me as you went out on your shopping excursions. And we both know how much you loved to shop! Throughout the year, every year, I can tell when you're shopping with me. Influencing me with where and what to buy. You were, and still are, my best friend. The one who loved me most. And you know how very much you are loved and missed, my precious daughter. I'm sure little Rachelle knows how much I miss her, too. She and Tomoe were my favorite cats. Now, of course, I'm feeding and communicating with the cat that has taken up residence in my backyard. He didn't like the new house his owners moved to, so he has decided to stay in this neighborhood. Considering he'd been a feral cat for several years, even before his family moved out of the house next door, he's looking good and healthy. He knows he's safe and has a welcome place to sleep on the back patio. Every afternoon like clockwork, he's at the screen door waiting for his food. In fact, as I'm typing this, I'm sure he's sitting out there right now waiting for me to fill his food bowl. So I'd better wrap this up and go feed him. As always, I thank you for loving us and keeping us in your thoughts, and sending your opinions and advice. And I know that you are working with the Angels to help things go well for us here. You are simply continuing what you'd always done here - taking care of your loved ones and wanting the best for all of us. I love you, Honey. Please do me a favor. As you know, my friend, Gwen passed over in November. Please check up on her and give her some words of encouragement as she acclimates to being back over there in spirit, and she has the opportunity to look back over her life. I truly hope that she's feeling happy, loved, and much more positive about everything. And I hope her next life will be a good, long, happy, and blessed life. In the words of the surfer dude we met in Hawaii, it's all good! Bye for now, Honey. Even though I don't write as often as I used to, I still think of you and communicate with you every day. I love you and I miss you, Honey. And your sister and dad do, too.

_ Mom

Hi, Honey!

Unbelievable. This is the 13th anniversary of your passing, when you went home to God. The years are just flying by. You've been gone for quite awhile, my beautiful baby girl. And yet, it seems like just yesterday when I last saw you drive away. You and Jessi were heading to Colorado Springs to say "good-bye" to Gale, your dad's second wife, who was dying of cancer. Ironically, we all ended up having to say a tearful "good-bye" to you instead. Gale didn't take her leave for another 12 weeks. And I know you were there to help her cross over. She'd told me how afraid she was to go. She was afraid that God was angry with her. I told her God loves us all unconditionally. And you were there on the other side to welcome her and escort her into God's loving presence. That's the kind of person you were and are. A loving, compassionate human being. And although you always said that you loved animals more than you liked people, you had plenty of love to go around!

I still think of you and speak to you everyday. Your birthday actually fell on Mother's Day this year. Back in 1975, you'd just missed being born on Mother's Day. I'd been in labor for several days and didn't realize it. Finally, on the evening of Sunday, 11 May 1975, I decided to go to the hospital. Not because the pain was awful. It was because I was too uncomfortable to sleep. Your dad had no problems sleeping, of course, and his snoring finally got on my last nerve. LOL So we went to the Army hospital at Fort Benning, and several hours later, you were born. My beautiful little Monday baby. I'll never forgot your big brown eyes. And you had a full head of brown hair. You were the most beautiful baby I'd ever seen. And you were literally the first baby I'd ever picked up and held. As a tomboy during my teenage years, I'd never babysat in my life. The nurses had to teach me how to hold you and change your diapers. LOL

Luckily, your mom and dad were fast learners, and you quickly grew up into the intelligent, creative, independent, strong young woman we remember now. You were and are amazing. You accomplished so much in the short 31 years you were here. You were and are so very loved and missed. One day, soon enough, we'll all be together with you on the other side of the veil. Until then, we'll continue to celebrate you and your life, and mark the milestones on the calendar of your birthday and your passing.

Today, we're celebrating the birthday of Cathy's daughter, Janet. She's 15 today. Her birthday is a joyful association with 23 June each year. Unfortunately, this morning, my friend Eva notified me of the passing of her friend from church, Miss Jo-Marie. Jo-Marie was an amazing woman who I'd met through Eva. She was kind, strong, and an inspiring advocate for other cancer sufferers. This had been Jo-Marie's third bout with the cancer that finally took her home to God. Hopefully, you'll be able to meet her over there and welcome her back to the spiritual realm, which is our true home.

You know that Jessi and I are planning our big summer vacation with your nephew, Connor. Going on an ocean cruise. It's going to be an adventure for all of us. And I know that you'll be right there with us, sharing the experience.

As always, keep your other nephew, Marcus, in your thoughts. Keep sending him your positive energy. He's 21 now and he's navigating his way to becoming a grown man. Some of his antics are amusing, and some are frustrating. But he's a good kid and I love watching him growing into the fabulous young man he's meant to be.

Good-bye for now, Cyndi. I don't write to you as often as I used to. But we're in communication every day. So you know how much you're loved and missed. Until later, Honey. Love You! Big hugs!

- Mom

Dear Cyndi, I've held on to this message for quite some time and so sorry for being late again. Seems I'm late with everything lately. Been a bad year with 2 cancer issues; first one done, and now another, but praying to God that this will be ok also. I was cleaning out a closet and found a beautiful angel in a box that your Mom had given me on her last visit to New England. Sometimes God bops us over the head when we forget to write. I love reading your Mom's messages to you. You are so loved by so many and even though we have never met, I feel as though I know you thru your Mom's messages. I hope you're happy and someday we shall meet. If you see my beautiful Chip, please hug him for me and tell him I miss him and love him every day. Till next time beautiful Cyndi, remember how loved you are.

Happy Birthday, Honey!

Today you would have been 43 years old. We'd be sitting in Red Lobster right now, celebrating your special day. I'd be teasing you about having more gray hairs on your head and your being one step closer to that big milestone 50th birthday. The Big Five-Oh! LOL! We probably would have spent the day shopping in Brass Armadillo, our favorite antique mall, or we might have gone to see a movie. We would have had fun with our usual mother-daughter weekend outing. A special trip to Sedona, with lunch at the Secret Garden, would have been a great way to celebrate. Wherever, or whatever, the activity, we would have been doing it together. That's what I miss most. Going shopping and to the movies with my beautiful older daughter, my best friend. And I miss our conversations. We used to talk about literally everything under the sun. And we always made each other laugh, because we share the same sarcastic sense of humor. Hard to believe that you've been gone from this side of the veil for 12 years already. I know you're living a full and active life "over there". But I still do miss you, Cyndi, and I think about you every day. When I finally check out and head home to God, you'll be there to meet me, along with all of our pets and loved ones. It'll be so much fun to see you again! And you'll get to show me around over there, and help me get used to being on that plane of existence again. After all, it's where we all originally came from, and it's where we all eventually go home to when we leave this place. We'll have so much to catch up on. We do communicate now, but it feels so limited. We're vibrating at a different, slower frequency here than where you are, so communication and contact is diminished and less efficient. The energy is much more dense here. Anyway, I'm looking forward to being able to laugh and talk with you the way we used to. Being able to see your face and hear your voice again. Or will we be communicating telepathically over there? That would be very cool! In the meantime, Honey, keep sending me messages as best you can, and remember that your Mom, your baby sister, Jessica, and your Dad, still love you very much. I still love finding those dimes you leave for me. That's how I know that you're thinking of me, too! So, have a very Happy Birthday, my beautiful daughter!

- Mom

Dear Cindi, So sorry for being so late with this message. Seems as though the older I get, the faster time goes by. The weather in New England has been awful. I'm sure it has to be much nicer in heaven. I pray you're happy and with those that you love. I missed your Mom this year when we went to the beach for a week, but maybe next year. Your Mom is a sweet dear lady and I'm so glad that she came into my life. I had to go for a biopsy on the 15th of March. Scared out of my mind and now just waiting for the results. It was done on the same day my beautiful Chip went to heaven. Not sure if it was good luck or bad, but time will tell. Sure hope he was praying for me. My son Clint said it was good luck because the day that I was scheduled to go we had over two feet of snow. Clint said that Dad didn't want Curt driving me to the hospital in a storm. Sure hope he was right. Dear Cindi, although I have never met you, I feel as though I know you and feel close to you. Your Mom has done a wonderful job keeping your memory alive. Please hug my beautiful Chip and tell him how much I love him and miss him. Sure wish he was here now to hold my hand. Hugs and love sent to you, dear Cindi.

Cyndi & Sam;
Cyndi I never had the pleasure of meeting you but know how much your Mom loves you. I can only imagine that so much of your Mom is in you. I have 2 daughters that are both grown now but I think of you and Sam occasionally through out each year and know what a gift each is. I thank God for their presence here but know there is a better place for us all. I will continue to keep you and Sam in my prayers. Sam, time passes too quickly and I wish you all the best.
Dan Ledford

Happy New Year Cindi!

I hope you and everyone I know over there (shout out to my mom and dad) had wonderful Holidays. I decorated for Christmas this year - I didn't really "feel" like it but I know mom and dad would want me to - Christmas is my favorite season and once I had the decorations up I was glad I put them up - it did remind me of happier times with mom and dad on this side of the veil.

Your mom sent both me and Margaret a HUGE arrangement from Edible Arrangements (one each that is!) - it didn't last long that's for sure - my absolute FAVORITES in that arrangement are the chocolate covered APPLES - OMG - never thought anything would knock chocolate covered strawberries off the top of the ladder - but those chocolate covered apples DID! I might call Edible Arrangements to see if they do JUST chocolate covered apple arrangments! YUMMY!

My cousin MaryAnn in SC sent me a birthday cake from Neiman Marcus - 710 calories per 6 oz slice with 72 grams of carbs! Took over a week to eat that cake (with Margaret's help) but I/we did it! (can't wait to see what my diabetic doctor has to say! UGH.)

Then my cousin (same one) sent a Mrs Prindables chocolate/caramel covered apple BASKET - two of those apples were "jumbo"...but more like 'HIPPO" sized! Bigger than BOTH my fists put together! (did I mention I LOVE chocolate covered apples?? LOL)

Today my dad is 100 years young!! I am wishing him a Happy Birthday - but I'd appreciate it if you could give him the hug that I can't (and one for mom too please?).

I promise to try to be a better pen pal this year - I'm starting to get my life back into a pattern again...it's going to take time though...but so far Margaret and I are on track for the plans we have to come to fruition in 2020...and we can't WAIT!

As always - we all love you and miss you on this side of the Veil....but we know we will have one hell of a blow out party when we all join you and all our loved ones one day where you are.

Happy New Year my dear friend.

Cyndi,

I've been looking for you over the years and I'm so sad that I found you here. You were a great friend and I wish I knew about this tragedy sooner. I still have the Christmas ornaments you gave to me. I wish I would have kept in touch. I'm so heartbroken this evening.

I think about your astronomy project when you had to chart the moon each twilight.

I remember that mass of beautiful black hair and those awesome boots. I remember how you loved your cats, 80 and 90's rock bands, and the holidays.

Thanks for being so good to me during those times. You left too soon. I am so sorry to learn about you this way. Crying tonight.

Hi, Honey

Well, another year has passed. Today is the 11th anniversary of your passing over to the other side of the veil. I can't believe how fast time is passing. No doubt, to you, no time has passed at all. But believe it or not, you've actually been gone eleven years. And needless to say, I still think of you every day, and I miss you just as much as when you first crossed over.

Your sister, Jessica, your nephew, Connor, and I had a wonderful vacation at Disneyland and Universal Studios Hollywood. I know you were there sharing the fun with us. I kept finding dimes everywhere, a sure sign of your presence! It was amazing! It's so nice knowing that you are still with us, sharing happy moments and celebrations with us. We know that you still love us over here on this side of the veil. And I'm sure that you know how very much you're loved and missed by us.

Please continue to send us signs. I enjoy it when you communicate with me. You still have a great sense of humor, Honey. Please continue sending your love and positive energy to Jessi, Connor, and to Marcus. Keep Marcus safe and help him make healthy, positive decisions in his young life. And thank you for keeping me company whenever you can. I know you've living a busy life over there and you don't visit as often as you used to. But our loving bond as Mother and Daughter is still there, and always will be. I love you and miss you, my beautiful Daughter.

Bye for now, Cyndi. Give Rachelle a big hug for me. She knows how much I miss her companionship. I miss her, Tomoe, and all of our pets that have crossed over. It's so nice knowing that when I finally "kick the bucket" and join you on the other side, all of our pets will be there to greet me, too, along with our human relatives.

Love,

Your Mom

Dear Cindi,
Your Mom is visiting Carol for a couple of weeks and it's so nice having her here in New England.
Carol lost her Mom and we, your Mom, Brenda and I went to say our final goodbyes. Lydia wanted it that way. Although I've never met you, I feel that I know you in a loving, caring, spiritual way. I hope you met my beautiful Chipper. When you see him, please hug him for me and tell him I miss him desperately and always will. There isn't a day that goes by that he's not with me. I miss my Mom, Dad, brother Harry and sister Lillian too. I know that you are with people that you love and love you in return. Your Mom is a wonderful, beautiful, person and I'm so glad that she is part of my life. Take care of yourself beautiful girl. We shall meet someday.

January 3, 2017

Happy New Year Cindi...Sorry it's been so long since I last wrote...as you know though I've had a busy time here...ending with my mom being called Home, finally...which is what she wanted for a long time. Thank you for greeting her as I'm sure you were on the welcoming committee when she arrived along with my dad and all her siblings as she was the last of them to be called Home. I don't know what else to say other than to wish you and everyone on that side of the veil a joyous New Year - you got one of the best when my mom joined you all. I will miss her the rest of my life here as I miss all of them that traveled thru the veil...but I am comforted knowing that one day I will be with you and all of those I love there. I haven't gotten back in the habit of sleeping in my bed yet....so I keep waking up in my chair and looking to mom's corner for her...but her chair is with a friends mom whose own lift chair broke just days after mom went Home so her corner doesn't look the same now. Let her know that she left here still owing me a grilled cheese sandwich....so when I finally get called home I'm going to hold her to making me one...of all the foods she made (stuffed shells notwithstanding) I will miss her grilled cheese sandwich the most - the ultimate comfort food for me that will never quite be the same again here....I hope she knows how sorry I am for every time I lost my patience with her...or got upset when I couldn't understand what she was trying to say to me...it wasn't her fault...that aphasia I think was the worst thing that can happen to a person...knowing what they want to say and physically not able to say it....but I know she understood me as no other ever will...and love me as no other ever could....just as I will love her above all others the rest of my life - her and my dad. I'm glad they were together at last for Christmas and New Years. I love them and all those who have gone Home...I love them all...and you...and miss all of you more than words can say. Thank God for your mom and Margaret, Harriet and Brenda...the core of my family here now. I'm glad to see the end of 2016 and hopeful that 2017 will see resolution to a lot of things so that life will go forward again one day. Thanks for meeting my mom on her journey thru the veil and Home finally at peace again.

Love, Carol

Happy New Year, Cyndi!

It's 2017 here on this plane of existence and we've just celebrated the passing of another year. I know that on your side of the veil, there is no passing of time. But I think that you're all aware of our holidays and celebrations here, and that you all share in the festivities. I spent a wonderful week in Colorado with your baby sister, Jessica, and your younger nephew, Connor. The Christmas Eve dinner at your Dad's house was fun, joyous, and memorable. I felt your presence there as we enjoyed the delicious food and the interesting conversations. It truly was very nice seeing your Uncle David and Aunt Kathy again. As you know, Jessi and I hadn't seen them since the memorial service we had for you 10 years ago. They'd flown up to Colorado in anticipation of the passing of your stepmother, Gale. Instead, we'd all ended up celebrating your life, and saying "good-bye" to you. One of life's ironies. Now, all of these years later, we gather as an extended family to celebrate Christmas and to remember those of you who have gone "Home" ahead of us. You know that you are still loved and remembered, and always will be, by your family. And you know that you will always be missed, especially by me and Jessi. As always, please keep an eye on your older nephew, Marcus, as he navigates through his difficult teen years and into adulthood. Help him make wise decisions in his choice of friends and on what will eventually become his life's purpose. Lend your positive energy and influence to help him find his calling and to become a happy, healthy, and prosperous young man. And thank you for the influence you had on helping Jessi obtain the new SUV she badly needed. She's got a new circle of friends who share her love of snowboarding and I'm so happy for her. And thank you for bringing a new friend into my life, too. Bob will be a fun and interesting companion. I love you, my beautiful daughter. And, even with all of the wonderful friends I'm blessed with in this life, you were and always will be my best friend. As always, I speak with you and think of you everyday. But I still enjoy posting these messages to your memorial website, because I know you enjoy reading them. You're always right here, watching over my shoulder, as I type these messages to you. It's been 10 years, and I still get weepy and teary-eyed as I type these messages. I love and miss you, Honey. Talk to you later.

-- Mom

Hi, Honey -

Today is the 10th anniversary of your passing. Ten years ago at approximately 6:30 AM, near Gallop, New Mexico, you left us and went home to God. Ten years ago, we said good-bye to your physical body. But your beautiful spirit has been visiting us, and communicating with us, and sharing our lives ever since.

You know how much you've been missed, and how so very much you're loved. You were and always will be my beloved older daughter and my best friend. My beautiful, intelligent, independent, strong-willed daughter. So bright. So talented. So kind and loving. So compassionate. You were and are an amazing person. And your baby sister, Jessica, shares all of your best traits. You are my shining star on the other side of the veil. And she is my shining star here, on this side of the celestial plane of existence. I am so proud and so amazed at Jessica's and your accomplishments. No parent could ask for more. You and she are two of the many blessings that I can thank God for putting in my life.

You know that Jessica and I just returned from a wonderful vacation in Florida with your younger nephew, Connor. We had the best time at Universal Orlando and Disney World. Your little sister did an outstanding job of planning our trip. She thought of every detail to make our vacation fun and unforgettable. And I know that you were there with us, enjoying and sharing the experience with us. We both felt your presence. Everything that we have going on in our lives, we know that you are here sharing it with us.

It never ceases to amaze me at how quickly time passes here. Ten years have already come and gone since you went Home. Yet, it's as though no time has passed at all. It's as though we were talking and laughing only yesterday, enjoying our vacation in Hawaii and celebrating your 31st birthday. I speak to you every day and I know you're communicating with me. But what I wouldn't give to see you and speak to you in your physical form just one more time.

I love you and miss you, Cyndi. My beautiful daughter.

- Mom

P.S. Tell Rachelle I love and miss her, too. She's still my favorite cat.

Well... let's try this again...been trying for over a week to an entry....as usual I'm late with an entry but I was on time wising you the happiest of over the hill birthdays this year! Not sure why this contraption didn't work...fi gets crossed this attempt succeeds.

I have to ask....is our whale still there? I hope so...if not your mom and I have pictures and I have every faith in the next couple of years we will make it back and recreate that whale for you.

I miss your humor, your wit, your zest for life, and your legendary shopping sprees...but your spirit everlasting is still with us all...especially your mom, sis, and nephews....with the occasional stop to check up on the rest of us.

As you know I've had hands full helping my mom....but I know when her time to cross the veil comes you will be another g those to greet her arrival...thank you for being a guardian angel to us all.

Happy belated (again) birthday my friend.
Carol

Dear, dear Cyndi, Happy, happy birthday. I hope it was wonderful and you were surrounded by the people you love and your special animal.
I read your Mom's message about your trip to Hawaii and hope some day she can show me where the two of you visited. I'm not crazy about flying, but I guess it's the only way to get there.
Hawaii sounds so beautiful filled with glorious flowers, blue ocean, puffy clouds, mountain, and so much more and it sounds like a little bit of heaven.
I hope that you met my beautiful Chipper who has been gone for 16 years. I miss him so much, so when you see him, tell him I still love him, always will, and hug him for me. And if you see my Mom, Dad, Sister and Brother, (Katina, Peter, Lillian and Harry), hug them for me too. One more hug for our beautiful Carrie, Clint's fiancee, who left us at the age of 30.
Every time I write, I wish that I had met you, but I know that someday I shall and will pay you back for all the hugs you give my family. Your Mom has been blessed with such a beautiful daughter, and you have been blessed with such a beautiful Mom.
On her last visit here, she gave me a beautiful angel. I collect angels because they make me feel safe and warm. I've heard that everyone here has a guardian angel and now you are someone's guardian angel. How beautiful is that?
Love to you Cyndi - till we meet - Harriet

Happy Birthday, Cyndi!

Today you would have turned 41 years old. And we would have teased you about getting old and being "over the hill". And you would have complained of finding more grey hairs on your head. And we would be having a great dinner right now at Red Lobster, eating our favorite seafood, and celebrating your special day. Of course, on the other side of the veil, you're 31 forever. Forever beautiful. Forever young. Forever vibrant.

Ten years have passed since you left. Unbelievable how fast time has flown by. Ten years ago we celebrated your 31st birthday with our first trip to Hawaii. We had so much fun! The shopping and site-seeing we enjoyed. The wonderful fresh seafood we ate. We both agreed that Hawaii was every bit as beautiful as the post cards we'd seen. I can still remember smelling the wonderful plumeria blossoms on the trees, and the brilliantly colored bougainvillea bushes that grew wild everywhere. We loved the luau we went to at the Hawaiian village. And we loved the bus tour we went on that took us around the Big Island. You especially loved the botanical gardens and seeing the sea turtles on the beaches with the black sand. We bought so much clothes, and Hawaiian cook books, and souvenirs, and stuff, that we had to ship three huge boxes home! And the condo we stayed in was wonderful. The view from the lunai was gorgeous. It was paradise. It was the perfect vacation. It was as though God knew it'd be our last vacation together. Because one month later, you were gone.

You know that I still picture you living over there on the other side in a place that looks just like Hawaii. Beautiful beaches, blue waters, magnificent tropical flowers, green bushes and palm trees. And there's a big blue rocky mountain behind your house. Because you love the mountains, too. When I finally cross over and see you on the other side, I'll find out whether it's just been my imagination, or whether you really do live there in that beautiful place. Needless to say, my intuition is telling me that that place is real. And that's your home now.

Your baby sister, Jessi, just texted me. She's wishing you a Happy Birthday, too. You know that I just spent a nice Mother's Day weekend with her and the boys in Colorado. Marcus is 18 years old now. I'm too young to have a grandson that age! He's got to be 6 feet tall now. He's a good looking young man. And Connor is growing like a weed. He's 6 now, and is learning to read and write so well. He's going to be tall just like his big brother. At 35, your sister still looks so young. I have to laugh when she complains about looking old. She doesn't. It's just the stresses of day-to-day life that makes her feel that way. Whenever we talk, I'm reminded again of just how smart and how amazing your baby sister is. She's just like you, Cyndi. An intelligent, strong, talented young woman. Both of you girls are so bright. My shining stars.

Well, next month, on 23 June, it'll be the tenth anniversary of your passing. Ten years have flown by. No time at all has passed over there on your side of the veil. And in some ways, for me, too, it's as though no time has passed. It's as though you're off shopping at Walmart and will come in at any minute, carrying the bags of new stuff that you've bought.

You know that you're loved and missed. And you know that I can still feel your presence here, and that we're still in touch. Still communicating. That will never stop.

I hope you had a wonderful birthday celebration over there with your friends, and all of our loved ones that have crossed over. Give all of our pets a hug for me. Especially Rachelle. I really do miss that little cat. She knows it. And I know that she misses me, too.

You're lucky. You can eat all of the birthday cake and ice cream you want over there, and you don't have to worry about getting fat! I guess Jessi wouldn't be calling you Chunky Butt any more!

I love you, Honey. Happy Birthday!

- Mom

Happy New Year, Honey!

Can't believe it. It's 2016 already. The past year just flew by so fast. You know how much you were in my thoughts over the holidays. It was our ninth Thanksgiving and Christmas without you here with us. But you're always with us in our thoughts. I still think about you and talk to you everyday. I still miss you and love you, my beautiful daughter. And you know how much your younger sister, Jessi, misses and loves you, too. No doubt you're aware of the new tattoo she's getting done that commemorates you. And I'm sure you're there to watch over her and enjoy her snowboarding adventures. Your sister is amazing! She's progressing so quickly in improving her snowboarding techniques. She's having so much fun and meeting new friends. It's wonderful. Connor is doing well in kindergarten. He's growing so fast and will soon be learning to snowboard with his Mom. Like his big brother, Marcus, he's a natural athlete. As always, I want you to keep looking out for your older nephew, Marcus, as he navigates his way through those difficult teenage years. He's still a good kid and a loving person. Help him find his way, the path he needs to take to grow into the happy, productive, mature young man he's meant to be. He'll be turning 18 in four more months and he needs to start thinking, as well as making good decisions, about his future.

I know you're still visiting and lending your positive energy to our lives. I know that you influenced your "sister" Lissette to get me the case of Hawaiian chocolate-covered Macademian nuts as a Christmas gift. She said she felt that you were steering her in that direction when she found them totally by accident in Sam's Club. She didn't know that they are my favorite candies. She bought them because "something" told her to. We both know that that was your way of giving me a Christmas present, through someone else. As you know, Christmas is when I miss you most. I remember how you were always buying me things you thought I might like. You always thought of me when you were out on your shopping expeditions. And we both know how much you loved shopping! I was totally surprised when I actually received a gift from your sister this Christmas. A delicious box of little cake bites. That's the first time she sent me a gift. Makes me wonder if that wasn't due to your influence, too!

December 27th was the one year anniversary of Rachelle's departure. She's with you on the other side, living in "cat heaven", no doubt. I know she's aware of how much she's missed and loved. She's still my favorite cat among all of the fur people who have been a part of my life. Tomoe is a close second. She, too, will always be missed and loved. When I finally get over to the side to join you, my parents, pets, and other loved ones, it's going to be one heck of a reunion!

Had a wonderful time last night at Cathy's house, ringing in the New Year with hers and Lissette's Chilean family and friends. It was the first New Year's Eve party I've been to in almost 20 years, and I actually enjoyed it. Loved the music, dancing, and the food. And I especially loved the Chilean folks who were there. Such warm, joyous, loving people. It's the first party I've ever been to with little kids, little dogs, and grown up Salsa dancers all celebrating in riotous harmony! It was great! And I know that 2016 is going to be a great year for all of us.

So, again, Happy New Year, Cyndi! I love you and miss you. As always, I want you to keep visiting, and letting me know you're still involved and participating in our lives "over here". Even though I don't write as often as I used, I'm always talking to you every day. And I always enjoy getting your comments and opinions. And I appreciate the guidance I often receive that I know is coming from you.

Bye for now, Honey. Love you!

- Your Mom

Dear Cindi,
I can't tell you how many times I have wished that I met you in person, but then in my heart, I feel as though I know you reading the words and listening to your Mom and Carol. It's hard for me sometimes to put my feelings into words. I feel so deeply and yet the words are not always there.
I heard that heaven is beautiful and the flowers are colors that we do not have here on earth.
When my beautiful Chipper went to heaven, he told me if we went to Wild River, we would see a lantern coming down the dirt road. I have not been back since then, but my son Chad did spend a weekend. He said that the day was beautifully clear and sunny. Then, the sky got really black, the wind blew and the trees were whipping and then for a minute or two, the sun came out, shined down on Chad and his friend, the wind blew the flames everywhere and it was peaceful again. He said there would be a lantern, so I guess his lantern came from up above.
I know that you are a beautiful, young woman, that you are dearly loved by your Mom and all the people that know you, and although we have never met Cindi, I love you too. I love you because of who you are; loving, gentle and caring.
Be happy beautiful Angel - give my Chipper a hug for me, and if you see Chad's beautiful dog Lucky, hug her too. We all miss her desperately.

hey there...it's me...late as usual...one of these days I'll be able to be as up to date and on time in personal matters as I am at work. Cindi...you are so very missed here...and right now I don't live near enough to your mom to give her the daily hug she should have...yet.

I remember the day you went home too...the entire day I was so restless...our friend Maureen was staying with me - it was my Friday day off...I had been up all night (again) and when Maureen got up we went out for a drive along the beach...it was 27 days since I'd called it quits with John (you probably remember him) and I was waiting to hear if I was accepted to the apartment I wound up moving into in August.

I remember you mom's call that evening (my time). All she could say was said in 2 words..."she's gone".

Nothing else...that's all...and I knew exactly what she was saying...exactly what she meant. I also knew I was going to do whatever had to be done to get to your mom. She had to go to NM to take care of Jessi and to make arrangements for that shell we knew as your body here. I knew I had to get to Arizona by the time your mom was coming home - I was physically ill at the thought of her coming back there alone...especially that first week...I'd have sold everything I owned if I had to - I was that desperate to get to her.

We made it thru that week together. As you know your mom is an amazing woman - I wish I was more like her - and when I grow up I hope I'm like the both of you.

I remember when I was on my way home one day and saw you reclined on that cloud floating by - it was such a clear image of you - I wish I'd taken a picture of you to send to your mom but I didn't carry a camera with me back then.

You are with your mom, Jessi, nephews and extended family every day and I'm blessed to feel a part of that extended family. We will never know why some of us leave so early but we can take comfort knowing that we will all wind up together again one day...and as your mom knows - I can throw a hell of a party/BBQ...as long as someone else does the cooking!

I wish I was with your mom today...just point the car to a road we've never been on and drive forward to somewhere we've never been. That day will come.

In the meantime...I'll keep being there for her as best I can.

you are missed...you are loved...you are the first star we see at night...and the last one to leave our sky...our guardian angle by day and night...thank you for watching over us all...and thank YOU Sam...for bearing and sharing such a beautiful soul with us all.

love, carol

23 June 2015

Hi, Honey -

Well, today is the 9th anniversary of your leaving us and moving over to the other side of the veil. Can't believe it's been nine years ago that I saw you and Jessica leave on that long drive up to Colorado. Nine years ago that I got the call from Jessi letting me know that something terrible had happened. You were six hours from home, up near Gallup, New Mexico, when you two had the truck accident. I thank God that you went instantly and didn't suffer. And I thank God you weren't alone. Your baby sister was with you. I'll never forget, even as the New Mexico Highway Patrolman was on the phone giving me the bad news, you were already contacting me to let me know you'd made it over to the other side okay, and that ArchAngel Saint Michael was among those who welcomed you Home. Jessi survived the accident with only a small bruise on her arm. And neither of you girls had even a single cut, even though every window in the 4Runner had shattered from the rollover. That was a miracle. Even though I realized it was your time to go Home, that you'd accomplished everything you needed to do in this lifetime, it was still so very hard to say "good-bye" to my beautiful older daughter. Even though we're still in contact and I "speak" to you all of the time, you know how much I still miss you. I'd love to actually see you and speak with you in your physical form. (If you're able to manifest and make that happen, just give me a heads-up first so I don't have a heart attack from the shock. I know you're having a good laugh at that thought!)

A few months ago when I went to the San Carlos Hotel with the ghost-hunting group, and they saw the golden orb of light floating around me, I knew it was you, Honey. You were on that ghost-hunting expedition with us. As always, you go everywhere with me!

Your presence is still pretty strong in this house. No surprise, since it is still your home on this side. Lissette, Edith, and Siokey's daughter, Nayelli, have all felt your presence. It was a little creepy for them; you always had a strong personality. And because I still consider your bedroom and bathroom to be yours, it took me 9 years before I felt comfortable with redecorating them to match the rest of the house. Your bedroom and bathroom are Italian-style now, but you noticed that I kept all of your favorite things in those rooms. After all, they will always be YOUR rooms.

As you know, Marcus made it safely back to Colorado after his little vacation in North Carolina. As always, please keep an eye on your nephew. Send him your love and positive energy. Help him make good decisions about his life and in choosing his friends. And please continue to be a positive and calming influence on your little nephew, Connor. I know you're one of his guardian Angels.

Keep the positive energy flowing to Jessi and Randy, too. I have such good feelings about their relationship. I want them to be happy together. I see a bright, beautiful future for them. And send your love to your dad and Anne.

As for me, as always, stay in touch and communicate with me whenever you're not too busy "over there". I know you're working with children who have crossed over after having hard, unhappy lives here. You've always been such a positive person, always helping, and teaching, and trying to make things better for others. Even though you claimed to love animals more than you loved people, we both know how much love you have for all living things. The plants and animals all felt your "fairy" energy. Please take care of our pets that have crossed over. Little Rachelle knows how much I miss her. And yes, Tomoe knows I love and miss her, too.

Nine years have flown by so quickly. You'd be forty years old now over here. Over there, you'll be a young, beautiful 30 forever. I'm looking forward to seeing you again when it's time for me to go Home. I'm especially looking forward to being 30 again. That will be a fun reunion!

Talk to you later, Honey. I love you and I miss you. I'm blessed with so many wonderful friends in my life. But you will always be my best friend.

Love,

Mom

Dear Cyndi,

Happy Birthday beautiful lady. I find it difficult to write the words that I feel in my heart, but I will try. I hope that your birthday was wonderful and you spent it with the people that you love. I haven't seen your Mom in a while, but I keep hoping we can take the vacation that we all planned. Carol's been busy with her Mom, I've been busy with my 89 year old brother, and it seems that things get in the way.
I hope that my beautiful Chipper found you. When you do meet him, please give him a big hug for me and tell him how much I love him and miss him. Tell him that he is with me every day of my life and that Chad got his message when he was at Wild River. I wish I was there with him that day so I could have seen the light from heaven. I have 3 sons and always wished for a daughter. I know he did too.
Oh, and while you're taking care of your beautiful pets, would you find Lucky for me. Lucky was my son Chad's dog and the family dog. We all loved her so and so will you. She's very gentle and very loving.
Dear beautiful girl. I pray that you are happy and smiling. Please pray for all of us. I believe in angels.
Your Mom is a beautiful, loving person and I am so happy that Carol introduced me to her. She loves you so.

Dear Cindi...

Happy Belated Birthday...as is getting usual I'm late with everything it seems - but then being where you are you know why and I know you don't mind. I hope you've met my dad by now...I'm sure he's anxiously waiting for my mom to join him but selfishly I hope I have her a long time to come.

It is so hard for me to wrap my head around it being nearly 9 years ago that you crossed thru the veil - graduating from this thing we call life so early. I hope if my mom is well enough to be left on her own for a bit that your mom and I might take a short trip - just she and I - back to Hawaii - see if your coral whale is there and if it isn't perhaps rebuild it for you as your 10 year anniversary gift for graduating this life.

As you know your mom is enjoying retired life - and I'm wishing I could - especially since we have our wonderful 12 day inspection with our 100+ visitors with the occasional game thrown in for good measure...I know how much it disappoints your mom to miss one of these! (yeah, right) LOL.

I hope you have a huge birthday bash - ask my dad to decorate your cake - he could give Duff or the Cake Boss a run for their money!

I wish I had more time but I have to run now - I just didn't want to be too late with your Birthday Wish - I'll write more the next time.

We all love you and miss you here but we are also very happy that you are there taking care of everyone - especially our pets.

Love, Carol

Happy Birthday, Cyndi!

Today is your 40th birthday! If you were still living on this side of the veil, I'd be teasing you right now about turning 40 and counting those gray hairs. Such a milestone birthday that marks a person's being at least halfway up that proverbial hill. Of course, being on the "other side of the veil", among the Angels and beautiful Spirits of Light, you're 30 forever and will never have to deal with gray hair, wrinkles, or aches and pains. But, because I'm your mother, I still commemorate every birthday for you and wonder how in the world I could possibly be old enough to have a daughter your age! I'm too young to have a daughter 40 years old! But no matter what age you are, you're still going to be young and beautiful. Forever!

As you know, I just got back from spending a great Mother's Day weekend with your baby sister, Jessica. For the third year in a row, we had a delicious Mother's Day special luncheon at the Melting Pot, which has now become our annual tradition. And of course, we thought of you. I know you were there with us, just as you're with us each time the family gets together. You're still a very big part of our lives. I can't get over how much your little nephew Connor has grown. He's getting taller. And his vocabulary is pretty good for a five-year- old. It never ceases to amaze me, remembering him as a newborn baby, and now I'm actually having conversations with a fully-realized personality with opinions, likes and dislikes. Kids grow up so fast! And Marcus, who you know is in North Carolina for the summer with his paternal grandparents, is being a typical, rebellious 17 year old. As always, I'm asking you to send him your love, light, and guidance to help him get through this rough teenage phase of his life. He's a good kid and extremely intelligent. We're all just waiting for that light switch to flip on so that he can become the man he was always meant to be.

Send a little enlightenment to your dear old dad, too, so that he can see that your baby sister is no longer a baby. She's a beautiful, intelligent, grown woman of 34 now. It's hard for us parents to stop seeing our children as the young kids you all once were. Even when you were here with me, I know I sometimes spoke to you as though you were still a teenager and not the grown woman of 31 that you were. But then, you often spoke to me as though you were my mother! Our roles had reversed! Jessica does that now, too. How funny! That's one of the things about my relationship with you girls that I've always enjoyed and cherished - we never lost our closeness and the communication never stopped. Even now, with you living "over there", we're still in touch. You certainly know how much I love and miss you, Honey. I still think of you and talk to you every day. And I still enjoy your "comments" and communications with me.

So, have a wonderful birthday, Honey. I hope you celebrate with your friends, all of our loved ones over there, and our beloved pets. Give Rachelle a big hug for me. I miss that cat. Out of all of the cats and dogs we've had, hers was the most unique, human-like personality. She was and is definitely my favorite little cat-person!

Love,

Mom

Dear, dear Cyndi,
I just read the messages from your Mom and Carol. I'm sure that Christmas in heaven must be so beautiful. Christmas here was nice, but we always miss the ones we love that are not here with us. I hope that you met my beautiful Chipper and my Mom and Dad, Katina and Peter and my brother Harry and my sister Lillian. When you do, please hug them for me. I wish I could wrap my arms around each one of them. I'm not as strong as your Mom or Carol. I guess you could say that I'm an emotional freak. I wish that I met you. I know how much your Mom loves you, and how much Carol loves you. Your Mom is such a dear, beautiful person. For Christmas, she sent me gifts that made me laugh out loud, especially the outfit for the cats. Of course it didn't fit the cats so I put the sweater and the hat on a teddy-bear (one of many) and put on the bed in my spare room. So precious. I will send her a photo. On my birthday she sent me a beautiful edible arrangement with 3 balloons. That's your Mom; beautiful and thoughtful and oh so loving. My friend Carol, is also dear and precious to me. God sent them both to me at the darkest time in my life and I'm so glad that he did. Dear Cyndi, I know that you're happy in heaven, but I also know that we who are left behind miss our loved ones so very much. Be happy beautiful girl.
When I meet you for the first time, I will hug you tightly. Love my family for me till I meet them again.
Love - Harriet

Happy New Year, Cyndi!

I just saw the entry that Carol sent you. As you can see, my friends still remember you with love, too. Not just me, Jessi, and your Dad. Even though I still speak to you daily, it's nice to add a new entry to your guest book occasionally. Of course I'm reminded daily of you by my friend, Lissette, and her sister, Cathy. Cathy looks alot like you, and Lissette acts alot like you! Being around them is almost as sweet as being with you again. The fact that Lissette came into my life 8 1/2 years ago at the same time that you crossed over to the other side of the veil was not only comforting to me, but more than just a coincidence. I know in at least one past life, Lissette and Cathy were my daughters, too, just as you and Jessi were. We were, and are, all family. It's beautiful how we go from lifetime to lifetime with our loved ones. We never truely lose one another. And we never lose our beloved pets,either. Rachelle, our last little cat, is now with you on the Other Side, along with Natasha, Sasha, Chanel, Isaac, Tomoe, Tonya, Ivana, and our dog Angel. When it's my turn to go home to God, I'll be seeing you, Mommy, Daddy and all of our pets. It'll be a very sweet reunion! I know that 2015 will be a wonderful, healthy, prosperous year for all of our loved ones. Please continue to look after your baby sister, Jessi, and your nephews, Marcus and Connor. Marcus especially needs the love, guidance, and protection of his guardian Angels and his loved ones who are in spirit. Please help him navigate through his teenage years and become the wonderful, intelligent, loving young man he was always meant to be. Please look after Randy and his kids, and help strengthen the unbreakable bond of love and friendship between him and Jessi. That's a relationship that is heavensent and meant to be. And please send your positive energy and strength to Jessi as she embarks on her new career as a massage therapist. It will be a new lifestyle and profession for her, one in which she will be very successful. She's a natural healer and one day, she will have her own business doing what she loves. As always, you know that I love you and miss you, for you are and always have been my best friend, as well as my beloved older daughter. Give Rachelle a kiss and hug for me. I miss that little cat. During the past 8 1/2 years, since you left us, she had been a loving little companion. Now she's happily basking in your love and affection, so pleased to be back with you and our other pets. Talk to you later, Honey. I love you!

- Mom

Merry Christmas (late) and Happy New Year (on time) Cindi. Time is going so quickly and slowly at the same time here...best of intentions and all - your mom and I really did mean to go to Hawaii in 2012 but didn't make it - and we meant to go in 2013 and 2014 but didn't make it. I won't say we'll be there in 2015 because as you know I live with my mom now (she's still here adn 89 years old!) and doubt I'll be able to make that trip until after she's gone to join all those she loves on your side of the veil...so hopefully that won't be for a very long time to come (I'm selfish a bit...I want her here with me). I hope you had a wonderful Christmas and will celebrate New Years with your mom and Jessi and her entire combined family (you have LOTS Of neices and nephews now!) I still think of you daily along with all those there with you that I love. Here's hoping 2015 will be a far better year than I've had recently...I could use a good one now.

love, carol

Happy New Year Cyndi - another good soul has passed thru the veil - her name is Verna - she's my cousin. She did not have an easy life on this side - and though she's with those she loved where you are - maybe you could take her under your wing and show her around a bit too - I'd love for you to get to know her - I think you'll really like her and I know she'd love you.

So - as you know, your mom and I want to go back to Hawaii - but it might not happen this year - things are a bit hectic for me right now since I'm moving home to help my mom out - mom has a new place - I hope you can stop by soon and say hi - I know you have your ways of letting us know you've visited.

We still miss you so much here - but we also know we'll all be together again soon - after all, life on this side really is a short span of time - less than the blink of an eye really.

Have a wonderful year honey! See you soon.

Love, Carol

Dear Cyndi,

My name is Harriet. You don't know me and I have never met you, but I feel as though I know you. I met Carol in work and we became instant friends. About a month or so after we met, she came into my office and told me that she had to fly to Arizona to be with her friend Sam (that I did not know at the time) and told mne that you had gone to heaven. I know that there are times when God needs beautiful, young angels. I hope your birthday was beautiful. I never had a daughter and wish so much that I did. I have 3 beautiful sons and I know that you would like them so much. I also know what it's like to love a child and I know how much your Mom loves and misses you. Carol introduced me to your Mom thru e-mail and we have since become good friends and I met her last time she was here. She is a dear, beautiful, special, spiritual person. When I met Carol, I was going thru a really bad time missing my Chipper and your Mom and Carol helped me so much. I hope that you meet Chipper. I know you will like him. He was such a wonderful, sweet, loving husband. I'm sure he's in heaven playing chess with God. I hope God lets him win. He's probably sleeping in a tent and I'm sure that God lets it rain gently on his tent. Chip always loved the sound of the rain. In fact, it's raining today. I get many messages from my beautiful Chip and I know that you send messages to your Mom and Carol. Please keep sending them. We need to hear from all of you. When you see Chip, please hug him for me and tell him that I miss him every day of my life and will love him forever. If you have time, please hug my Mom and Dad, Katina and Peter, and my brother Harry and my sister Lillian. Dear, dear Cyndi. Happy Birthday beautiful girl. I'm glad that I can write to you. I will look for you in the clouds. Love - Harriet

Happy Birthday, Cyndi!

Today you would have been 37 years old at 11:37AM EST. We would have celebrated with dinner at either Red Lobster or the Cheesecake Factory. And we would have enjoyed watching the new Avengers movie in IMAX 3D. We would have had a wonderful day. I hope you celebrated with all of our loved ones on the other side of the veil. Even though I know you'll be only 30 forever "over there", you all share our special days over here and knew that we couldn't forget that this was your birthday. I miss you, Honey. I know your baby sister, Jessi, and your dad thought about you today. And of course, my friends, Harriet, Starlene, and Carol all wished you a Happy Birthday. It's so sweet and loving of them to have remembered. Because they know how much you are loved and missed by all of us. Especially me. Stay in touch and communicate whenever you can. I like being aware of your presence. You can still make me laugh with your comments and observations. I love you. You'll always be my beloved daughter and best friend. Happy, happy birthday. And next year, I plan on definitely celebrating your 38th birthday in Hawaii!

- Mom

Happy New Year, Cyndi!

Another year has come and gone. Can't believe how fast 2011 flew by. I have a feeling that 2012 will fly by even faster. It's going to be a wonderful year with all kinds of blessings that will come our way. The biggest event for our family, of course, will be Jessi and Chuck's beautiful wedding in July. And I know that you will be there to celebrate with us, just as you share in every event of our lives. I miss you and love you, my beautiful older daughter. Always stay in touch and let me know that you're with me. You will always be a part of my life. I appreciate the fact that you haven't lost your sense of humor. I know it was you who keeps flipping the TV channel to that infomercial! Yes, I keep buying things and not using them! Keep me on track, Honey. Mom needs your humourous reminders. And I promise that I will continue to speak to you and think of you every day. And I promise to be more careful when I'm driving my truck. I got lucky - my guardian Angels were definitely watching out for me. You're right, we don't need any more scary senior moments! It's a good thing we can laugh about it now. I know that you're looking out for me, Jessi, Chuck and the kids. Keep looking out for your Dad, too. This is going to be a great year for all of us. Anyway, as always, I miss you and I love you. I'll talk to you later, Baby Doll.
- Mom

Cyndi? I know I was just in here yesterday - but....I had to say thank you - for the sign you sent - I KNOW it was you - but it just floored me!!! You looked absolutely peaceful and beautiful!! I couldn't believe it - and I so wish I'd had a camera with me...I saw you...in the clouds on my way home at the traffic light I was stopped at. That WAS you....wasn't it? While stopped at that light, I looked up - like I was compelled to look up - and there was a cloud directly in front of me - and the shape the cloud made was YOU - it was YOUR face, YOUR long hair, YOUR body, arms, legs, feet, hands - it looked like you were lying down resting on a fluffy pillow - but it was unmistakably YOUR face - it was YOU - wasn't it??? I sat thru 3 cycles of that red light until the shape changed and became just another cloud in the sky. I wish I'd had a camera with me so I could have taken your picture and sent it to your mom. You truly are at peace where you are...thank you for dropping by - and for watching over everyone. We all miss you - but no one more than your mom and Jessica - maybe you could float by them in the days to come - I know they'd love to see you!

Ever grateful,
Carol

Hey Cyndi - Happy Belated Birthday and Anniversary - it's been a LONG time since I visited this Guest Book - sorry about that - it's been a really busy few years - the last time I popped in was before my Uncle passed to your side of the veil - and I never got the time to thank you properly for your help with him - I know my dad was there the day Uncle Lou passed over - and that you were there too. It's so difficult for me to grasp just how much time has passed since so many of those I love have passed - for you it's 5 years - for my dad it's been 13.5 years - for Uncle Lou it's been 3 years almost. That's just a few of the dozens of my relatives on that side of the veil with you. I miss them all - and you - every day - I still make a point of thinking of my favorite memories every day of all of them and you. My mom, lately, has become convinced that she is not long for this life - in fact she just said to Margaret and me the other day that she'd be dead in the next year - she wasn't planning on being here much longer. I don't know why she's gotten so convinced, I hope she's wrong - I'm not ready to lose her too -but...Cyndi, IF she's right - I know my family will help her when it's her time to transition thru the veil - but it would mean a lot to me if you could be there too - I think you and my mom would get along great - and I think you'd be better able to help her adjust to the passing. Your mom and I keep saying 'next year in Hawaii'...well (SHHH!!) - I really DO plan this time to be in Hawaii WITH your mom in May of 2012 - fingers crossed I can make this happen this time!!!! (and if that whale isn't still there - I have pictures - we'll rebuild it!!!) Wish me luck! Speaking of luck - THANK YOU!! - I KNOW you were guiding me to the right slot machines - it was after all 23 June!!! And the machines I hit the highest on were (no surprise) a slot game called "reel 'em in" - based on water and fish!!! as close to Hawaii as you get in a casino! And who knew a penny slot (on the maximum bet) could pay out $1100 - of course YOU knew - I felt a shove in my back as I passed that machine - was that you telling me to play?? Thank you if it was! I'm going back down there Saturday - feel free to give me advice on what machine to play!!! I'm sorry it's been so long since I stopped in to your guest book - but I know you know how busy it's been for me these past 3 years. Wish me luck on getting me and your mom to Hawaii next May!! and luck at the casino's too! Give my dad and my uncle a big hug from me?

always,
Carol

Hi, Honey!

Well, another year has come and gone. Today, 23 June 2011, is the fifth anniversary of your leaving us and going over to the other side of the veil. It's been five years already - unbelievable that you've been gone so long. Yet I remember all of the details of the day you "died" as though it were yesterday. Every time I drive past the gas station where we last said "good-bye" to each other, I still remember your last words to me. "Love you, too, Mom!" We all still miss you. I still think of you every single day. Even though I can still feel your presence, I still miss not seeing you and being able to speak directly with you. Every once in a while I get impressions of what it's like "over there", and what you're doing. You're very busy, and living a very joyful life. Not having to worry about bills or dealing with taxes anymore - I'm looking forward to that myself! Next year on this day we'll be celebrating Jessica and Chuck's wedding. Thereafter, there will be happy, joyous memories associated with this day. And, I'm hoping by this time next year, I'll be living in beautiful Hawaii. Then my surroundings will match yours! I love you, Cyndi. You'll always be my beautiful older daughter and my best friend. Always stay in touch and let me know that you're with us and thinking of us. You know that you're always in our thoughts. Talk to you later, Baby Doll! I love you!

- Mom

Hi, Cyndi!

Today is the fourth anniversary of your passing over to the other side of the veil. Can't believe how fast time is passing - it's been 4 years already. Over where you are, of course, I'm sure you're not aware of time passing - after all, eternity is eternity! This day is another one of those milestones when I especially feel your absence and miss your company. I'm sure your sister, Jessi, and your Dad are thinking of you today, too. We all miss you and love you, Honey. Just like every other day since you left us, but especially today. Remember to keep in touch - keep giving me signs that you haven't forgotten us over here on this "earthly plane of existence". Every once in awhile I get the feeling of how busy you are over there - you're living a very full and active life. Continuing your research and expanding your knowledge. Sharing that knowledge with other people. Helping and teaching people. You have a very active social life, too. I have a feeling there are a lot of people over on your side who are waiting to see me again when I cross over. It'll be a real homecoming! They're going to have to keep waiting awhile, though, cause I've still got quite a few years to go before it's time for me to kick the bucket! I'm so fortunate in the wonderful friends and family that I have to keep life interesting. But you were and always will be my "best" friend, my beloved daughter. I love you, Cyndi! Oh, and little Rachelle misses you, too. But she's a happy cat - doing great for 13 years old. She's become alot less shy and much more comfortable around visitors since you left. She's turning into a real extrovert! I've become her substitute mommy, because we both know she'll always be your baby. I love you, my beautiful daughter! And I miss your company. Why do I keep writing to you on this website, when I talk to you all the time? I guess this is like keeping a journal, capturing my thoughts in writing for you to read. And for me to read again later, of course. Documenting this journey through life since you left - the "post-Cyndi" years. I know you appreciate it - it's your absolute assurance that your mom hasn't forgotten you. That's never going to happen, Honey. Your mom will never forget you. Unless, of course, I get so old that I go senile - in that case, all bets are off! Yup, I can hear you laughing!

-- Mom

Happy Birthday, Cyndi!

Yesterday was your 35th birthday. I hope you received all of the prayers and birthday wishes that my friends and I all sent you. I wanted to make sure you know that you're still loved and remembered by them. (You know for a fact that your dad, sister and I love you and miss you! But it's nice for you to hear from other folks who still hold your memory close to their hearts, too.) Hopefully, Jessi, Chuck, the kids and I will be able to celebrate your 36th birthday in Hawaii next year. I want to see if the coral whale is still there on Kona with your name spelled out in white coral rocks. (If it isn't, we'll put it back again!) You know that I think about you and talk to you everyday. And I need you to keep communicating with me. Even though you're living on the other side of the veil now, you're still my beloved daughter, and you're always going to be a part of my life - until I join you over there! I love you, Honey. Happy, happy birthday!

--- Mom

Happy New Year, Cyndi!

It's the beginning of a new year and a new decade. And it's baby Connor's first holiday season. I enjoyed spending Christmas with Jessi, Chuck, Marcus and little Connor. It was good seeing everyone again - Betti and Greg, and their kids, as well as all of their friends. It was a very pleasant vacation and a lot of fun. Christmas shopping with Jessi brought back a lot of happy memories of past holidays with you and your little sister. We used to love going to the malls and shopping for gifts for everyone! I felt your presence and had a feeling you were sharing our shopping experience this time, too. Hard to believe you've been gone almost four years already. (That is, four years on our side of the veil. For you, there is no time and everything is truely timeless.) On your side of the veil, you're aware of and celebrate the holidays with us - you're still very much a part of our lives. No doubt Gail was able to spend time with Raymond and Ann, and share in their happiness and companionship. I still miss you, Honey, and I love every sign you send me that you're here and thinking of us. And yes, I'm still falling asleep with the TV and lights on! I know you're still working on getting me to break that bad habit! (There's no electricity bills where you are now. Lucky you!) Little Rachelle is doing fine - she's in pretty good health for a 12-year old cat. I think she still sees you when you pop in to visit. I know that Natasha, Tomoe, Chanel, Sasha and our other cats are happy and healthy with you on the other side. Please let me know if Angel and Romeo are with you, too. If not, then I hope they're well cared for and loved by their new families. Needless to say, with the New Year, I'm doing my usual resolutions to lose weight, get in shape and spend less/save more money. Whatever influence and positive energy you can send me to help will be much appreciated, my beloved daughter! I love you, Cynthia!

--- Mom

Happy Birthday, Cyndi!

Yesterday at 11:37AM EST, you would have been 34 years old. Throughout the day, as I thought about you, I wished you "Happy Birthday". It's on days like this, I especially miss you. We would have gone to the Cheesecake Factory to celebrate. Or to Red Lobster. Depending upon whether you were in the mood for your favorite seafood. Or better yet, we could have driven down to Tucson and I would have treated you to dinner at the Agave Restaurant at the Desert Diamond Casino. No matter which place, we would have had a great time. On the other side of the veil, I know you're still aware of birthdays and holidays, and you try to be with us here to share in the celebration. Your sister was thinking of you, too, Honey. She misses not being able to call her big sister and spend hours on the phone gabbing away. Next year, I plan on all of us celebrating your 35th birthday in Hawaii. You know that your sister is expecting your new little nephew in September. In fact, I wouldn't be surprised if you've already met him on your side of the veil, and you know who he's going to be as he grows up. Jessi picked a good name for him. Soon, Connor Mason Gandy will be joining our little family and Marcus will become a big brother. So, even though we're missing you and feeling your physical absence (can't believe you've been gone 3 years already), we know you're here to share in the celebrations and milestone events of our lives. We all love you and miss you, Cynthia. Your mom especially, because you were and are still my best friend. Keep sending me your comments - I still enjoy your sense of humor and little gems of wisdom. I'm still continuously amazed at what an intelligent, gifted, special person you were and are. I love you. You don't visit me as often as you used to - you're living a very active life "over there" - but I do enjoy it when you pop in to visit. And please send your love and good energy to your sister. She's doing great in college, keeping up with her studies and making new friends. Help Chuck find his way home soon. Marcus is doing great in school right now and getting ready to go into the 6th grade. He's growing up so fast. Please keep an eye on your nephew and send him your love and positive energy, too. He'll be going on vacation soon to see Franny and Grandpa Victor. He'll have fun. And I'll be going out to Colorado in July so that Jessi and I can have some quality time together before the baby arrives. It's been years since we went to the Renaissance Festival. We'll have alot of fun. And I know you'll be there with us! Don't forget to give us signs so that we'll definitely know you're there. I love you, Honey. Happy birthday!

- Mom

Merry Christmas, Cyndi!

We all love you and miss you. This is our third Christmas without you, and it still just doesn't feel the same. I miss the shopping and watching the TV shows with you. And , of course, I miss the big Christmas dinner we'd have, even when it was just you and me here in the house. I don't suppose you have a spiritual equivalent of Boston Market over there on the other side with you?!! I do know that our loved ones on the other side do spend holidays with their families over here. So I know that you're here with me right now as I'm typing this. Pop on over to Jessi and Chuck's house, too, to spend some time with them, as well. Marcus should have opened all of his presents by now. Do something to let them know you're there - but nothing too scary. Let Jessi know that you like the tattoo she got to remember you by. I have a feeling that she misses her big sister more than she let's on. I love you, Honey. I'm looking forward to celebrating your 34th birthday in Hawaii in 2009. And I know you'll be there to enjoy the trip with me!

- Mom

Well, here I am - late again - to wish you a 'happy' anniversary, because no matter how sad your passing was for us here on this side of the veil, I know you are so very happy and healthy on YOUR side, free of all that bound you here from doing all you wanted to do.

I was not able to get out to see your mom as I had hoped to spend this anniversary with your mom - as you know, there have been a lot of problems here that needed me here - for my mom and my uncle. I'll try extra hard to be able to visit your mom next year at this time, though.

Thank you for looking in on my Uncle - I know it was you - he didn't know your name, but he described you to a tee - we always ask if he remembers visitors who came to see him - he always answers no - but two days ago - the day we transfered him from that HORRIBLE nursing home to what we hope will be a much better nursing home - he told us he had a visitor - he said he didn't recognize her and didn't know her name, but he described YOU - the picture your mom has of you in your senior year picture (at least I think it is your senior year picture) - he said you didn't say anything, but he felt he somehow knew you. It is the most conversational he's been since the seizure/stroke he had. Thank you so much - mom felt very hopeful as he was talking - it was very difficult for him to talk so much but he seemed to NEED to say that to us for some reason - and it seems to have brought a measure of peace to mom that he's not as upset at being moved from that other nursing home as he had been - he's been so afraid of change these past few months and he isn't so afraid now - thank you Cindi.

I don't cry for your passing as I once did - but I do still cry because I know how much your mom misses you (I know Jessica, Marcus, and your dad miss you, but your mom is one of MY best friends, and it hurts me to see her hurt so much - it is such a mixed blessing when the ones we love so much pass over to the other side - joy for those who have passed and are young, healthy, and vibrant again, and so sad for those of us that have not completed our mission here on this side yet.)

though I can not be with you obviously to celebrate, and I can not be with your mom to at least provide comical diversion during this difficult time - I'm with both of you in spirit and look forward to a time when we are once again all on the same side of the veil. The next time I have a 'vacation' with both you and your mom it won't be like in 2004 - John will NOT be there - and we three can just have fun.

Take care - and thanks again for all you've done!

Hi, Honey!

Today is the 2-year anniversary of your passing. I can't believe that two years have already flown by since you went over to live on the Other Side. I woke up this morning thinking about two years ago - the last time I saw you, you were at the gas station, getting ready to take off for Colorado with your little sister, Jessi, in your Toyota 4Runner. The last words we said to each other were "I love you." Then, the two of you were gone, driving off on your first roadtrip without either your dad or me with you. I remember getting that phone call from Jessi at 6:30 in the morning on 23 Jun 2006, telling me you were in a rollover accident. And an hour later, I found out that you were gone. My sweet daughter was gone. I've missed you these two years and I've been so thankful that we've still had our "psychic" bond, and have been able to communicate. But I miss so much not being able to physically see you and talk to you, and hear your voice. I've enjoyed seeing you in my dreams - I wish you'd visit me more often. And no doubt, you're aware of the photos of you that I still keep all over my desk. I like looking at them as I type on my computer. The beautiful photos of you at the Grand Canyon. And in Hawaii. That was a wonderful vacation we had there on the Big Island, only one month before you passed over. It was as though God knew you were getting ready to leave, so He gave us that wonderful trip to celebrate your 31st birthday. I like the pictures of you sleeping on the couch with Romeo in your lap. And sitting at our kitchen table. Everyday things you used to do when you were here on this side of the veil, living in our house. I know you still visit - in fact, I know you're standing right beside me right now as I type this. I can feel your presence, my beloved daughter. I know you're hugging me, and I'm hugging you right back. Yes, even after two years I still cry my eyes out whenever I type an entry for your journal. I miss you and I love you, Cyndi. I always will. It's weird to think that one day, I'll be commemorating the 10th, and even the 20th year, of your passing. My mother, your little Japanese grandmother, has been gone since 1986. The years have flown by. For all of you who are Home with God, there is no time, and when I finally get over "there" to join you and everyone else who have passed over, it'll be as though we'd only said "good-bye" this morning. This is a sad anniversary because I still mourn your leaving. But it's also a happy anniversary for you - you "graduated" early and went Home. Your purpose for being here had been fulfilled; you had learned all that you had come here to learn, and experienced all that you had come here to experience. It was time for you to return Home, from whence we all came. I know you're looking out for all of your loved ones over here, and I know you're still participating in our lives. I enjoy the comments I get from you when I'm watching TV - you have the same sense of humor! I love you, and I want you to always stay in contact with me. Because, as we both know, you weren't just my older daughter - you were, and are, my best friend. I love you, Honey!

- Mom

Happy Birthday, Cyndi!

Today, at 11:37 AM EST, you turned 33 years old. All of us who love you wish you the best birthday ever. I know you were having a little celebration over there on the other side! Even though everyone is forever 30 over there, you still acknowledge and celebrate your special day with those of us who are still on this side of the veil. Next year, I'm planning on Jessica, Chuck, and Marcus being with me in Hawaii to celebrate your 34th birthday. We'll eat birthday cake and sing "Happy Birthday" to you at the beach! I know you'll enjoy that.
Had a wonderful Mother's Day weekend with your sister and nephew. That was such a nice surprise when they drove here from Colorado! I know you were with us when we were here in the house, watching TV and having fun. And you enjoyed touring those model homes with us on Sunday. Nice to see you, Jessi and I all share the same taste in houses! You know that Marcus was a little nervous about sleeping in your bedroom and using your bathroom. It's because your presence is still so strong here in our house. Hopefully, he'll feel more comfortable the next time he comes here to visit. I know you were with Jessi and Marcus on their long drive back home to Colorado - you made sure your baby sister got home safely. (During my vacation at Jessi and Chuck's house over the Christmas holidays, I'm pretty sure I could sense your presence. You were visiting them, too, and celebrating with us all.) Even though you're "Home" on the other side, you're still such a big part of our lives. You know how much we all love and miss you. Hard to believe you've been gone almost 2 years.
You know that little Natasha is almost on her last legs. She's 20 years old, which is pretty ancient for a cat. When I know that it's her time to go, I'll take her to the vet to be put to sleep. I won't wait too long, like I did with Tomoe, hoping that she'll recover and regain her health. Right now, Natasha is still trying to eat and get around - she's a little stiff and walks slowly, but she doesn't appear to be in pain. Her mind is still good - she certainly knows when to head for the kitchen whenever I'm in there so she can get her snacks. But she's not doing well chewing at all - which is why I've got her on baby food. When she gets to the point where she can't or won't eat then I'll know that it's time for her to join you and all of our other pets on the other side. At least I'll know that she'll be okay and doing perfectly well over there. She'll be a young cat again!
Gonna go now, Honey. I don't write as many entries in your journal as I used to - I guess it's because I "talk" to you all of the time, which is a blessing for me. I'm so glad that we do have this kind of connection. I know that you don't pop in here to visit as often as you used to, either - because you're busy living a full, happy life over there. And you know that Jessi, Marcus and I are okay here - you don't have to worry about us. But I do want to keep in contact with you - you are and always will be my beloved daughter and best friend. Talk to you later, Honey! I love you! And happy, happy birthday!!

- Mom

Hello Sam,
Forgive me, but I just found out about Cyndi's death last week after talking to Carol at a function here at Hanscom AFB. I had no idea you had lost Cyndi in a vehicle accident a few years ago. I know how close you are to both of your daughters, so my heart was broken when I heard the news. I know Cyndi is in a much better place with her angels. I will say a prayer for you and your family to stay strong and forever faithful.

Your friend,
Henry Pandes

Well, it's been a little while since I had time to stop by and send you a note - though I keep making mental notes of what to say and I say hi to you in my prayers daily for you, your mom, Jessica, and Marcus. You're birthday is coming up one week from today, and I'm not sure I'd have time next week to wish you a Happy Birthday - 33rd is it, or 34th? The years fly so fast - and sooner than we think we will all be where you are - only we won't have to have our fun interupted by going to work every day! Well, at this time last year, your mom and I were in Hawaii with you and your gecko's - and though we really wanted to go back this year, finances for me were just not cooperating. However, next year could be a totally different story - I hope we can go back next year.

Cindi - I have a favor to ask of you, if you don't mind? My mother's eldest brother - Lou, 93 years young - he's suffered a seizure and stroke in January - he's in a nursing home now - and not doing too well. My mom is a lot more worried than she lets on - she never expected to be the last sibling alive out of 9 kids and she's very upset to see her brother lingering in this manner. I know it will be according to God's Will when my uncle dies, but I think my uncle is resisting going to where you are - I think he is terrified of leaving this life because he's always been so sure of things here, but he may not be so sure of what it is like once you pass thru the veil. My favor is this - if you find yourself near the Hammersmith House in Saugus, MA - maybe you could stop and have a short chat with him? I know you could put his mind at ease. I love my uncle very much - this one most of all actually - and selfishly I don't want him to leave us. But to see him the way he is now, from the way he was - so vital - so alive - do you know he was at his desk at work at the age of 93 (he owns several of his own business's) when the seizure hit? he never retired. I love him, but I want him to be free again to live and move and do - not have to have others clean him up and have to use a hoyia lift machine with two people in order to move him from bed to chair and chair to bed. I'd like to see him enjoy food again - not have to have someone spoon feed him puree'd everything (puree'd turkey and puree'd tuna fish are the worst!)

So my purpose here I guess was two fold - to wish you a very happy birthday next Monday, and to ask if you could to chat with my uncle - he's been visited by several of my family, including my dad, that have already passed thru the veil, so I know he'll be able to hear and see you - and I know he'd listen to what you have to say.

Your mom, dad, Jessica, and Marcus all love you so much, and we all miss you more than words can say - but until we are all on your side of the veil, we'll just keep speaking with you in our hearts - we know you hear us, and just so you know - we hear you too!

OH - I almost forgot - so far, to date, since last year, you've sent me $193.40 in DIMES!!! I find them everywhere! thank you, so much! I'm saving them for when your mom comes out and we go to Mohegan Sun to play the nickle machines! Bye Honey! have fun in the sun for all of us stuck in work!

Happy Thanksgiving, Cyndi!

I know that everyone on the other side keeps up with what's going on here in this dimension. So I have no doubt that you've visited with me today - enjoyed watching TV with me, and I'm pretty sure you were with me as I prepared the vegetables to toss into the huge pot of corned beef brisket and cabbage I made. We were never "turkey" people, were we, Honey?! You and I always had baked ham, with all of our favorite side dishes from Boston Market. I decided to forego that today, since my friend, Gwen, prepared a full early Thanksgiving feast during my visit with her in San Antonio. So I've definitely had enough ham and sweet potatoes to last me until next Thanksgiving! And I know you were there, enjoying my Texas vacation with me. Especially when we toured the Toll Brothers model homes. I could "hear" your comments. Yes, we do have expensive tastes, don't we, Honey! I can only imagine the home you have there on the other side. I picture it with mountains behind it, and an ocean view in front of it. Because you loved both. I believe you're living in the other side's equivalent of Hawaii - your own Big Island paradise. Wherever it is, I know you're surrounded by tropical flowers and beautiful landscapes. And you've got all of our pet animals over there with you. I know your reunion with Chanel was a joyful one. She was your favorite cat. That's why Carol and I put her ashes under the Joshua tree by the side of the road during our drive back from Las Vegas when she came out from Massachusetts shortly after you passed over. I knew Chanel was with you, and there was no longer any need to retain her ashes in her little ceramic urn. And I know little Tomoe is with you, too. Of all of our pet cats, she loved me most and was like a little daughter to me. I'm looking forward to seeing her and all of our pets when I go "Home". I'm sure you visited with your sister, Jessi, today to see how she, Chuck and Marcus were celebrating Thanksgiving. They're having a wonderful time at the home of your dad's girlfriend, Anne. I was happy to hear all the commotion going on in the background as I talked to Jessi. Lots of people were there and Jessi was having a good time. One of these days, though, I've got to teach her how to cook a turkey - it's almost a rite of passage. I told her that even at the age of 26, she's not a grown-up until she's cooked her first big Thanksgiving turkey!! I'm looking forward to driving to Colorado to spend Christmas with them. We're all so glad that we got Jessi, Chuck and Marcus moved to Colorado, finally. Now they're close enough for us to visit alot more often, but not so close that she'll feel like I'm breathing down her neck. She's alot like you, Cyndi - Jessi is a very bright, beautiful, independent young woman. And I know that you are very proud of your baby sister, and you continue to watch over her and your nephew, Marcus. Anyway, Honey, I just wanted to tell you, as always, I miss not seeing your physical presence or hearing your voice. I love you. And yes, I know, you wish you could hug me when I cry as I type these journal entries to you. Can't help it - you were my first baby girl and my best friend. You always will be, Cyndi. But at least now, it's just about the only time I cry. Big improvement - I'm not running around with bloodshot eyes anymore! Bye for now. I love you, Honey. This is our second Thanksgiving with you on the other side.

-- Mom

Well, it's been a while since I found time to write - though I write to you all the time in my head. Just popping in to say hi - and thank you - I keep finding dimes - I think I'll hang on to them until your mom comes for a visit back to New England - we'll take them to Mohegan Sun and play the nickel machines! I also wanted to tell you how much I enjoyed the gecko's you sent our way in Hawaii - they were always on the lanai of the condo, and on the stairs we went up and down - but the favorite one, for me, was the one you had jump on my leg at Bubba Gumps - I'm sorry I scared the little guy - I didn't expect him to land on me - but loved the chase he led me on as I tried to take his picture. Cindi - your mom is amazing - and you, your mom, and your sister are an inspiration to all of us - especially those of us that have lost loved ones. I'm sorry you had to leave us, but thank you for having an amazing mom. I try to regale her every week with tales from the crypt that is Hanscom - and with what is going on in some of the lives she's touched - like my mom and my sister. I hope you are nearby when I talk to your mom - I think you would find the 'soap operas' I share with your mom to be amusing too. I'll keep saving those dimes! thanks! (When your mom and I go to the casino next, YOU can pick what slot machine we play - okay?!)

Hi, Honey -

No doubt you remember that yesterday, 10 Aug 07, would have been your dad's and my 33rd wedding anniversary. Pretty amazing how fast time flies by. And today is the one year anniversary of Gale's passing over to the Other Side. I was thinking quite abit about both of you today. And I know that you wanted me to know that you were here with me. Pretty fabulous signs that you sent me. As I was driving to Cracker Barrel to meet a friend for lunch, there was no missing the Toyota 4Runner that was racing along ahead of me. It looked exactly like your SUV, and of course, it made me think about you, buzzing around town like you used to do. That's something I miss - riding around with you in your 4Runner, going to the movies or shopping. And I couldn't miss seeing that big truck going north, as I was driving south - it had the name "Gale" in huge black letters on its side! But the best sign of all was when my friend and I sat down at our table, and the lady who took our order was wearing an apron with five stars on it and your name, "Cynthia", underneath in beautiful gold embroidered letters! I had to explain to my friend why that had me laughing! No doubt, it was another sign from you. The icing on the cake was when another waitress came up to deliver our food - her apron bore the name "Jess" on it. Her name was Jessica, but she was called by her nickname, just like your baby sister, Jessica!! That was so cool! I felt like you were with me all day today. As always, Cyndi, I love you and I miss you. Tell Gale I said "Hi!" and I'm glad she's so happy now over on the Other Side. I know it's not at all like what she was taught to believe about the afterlife - it's more beautiful and joyful there than any of us here on this earthly plane can ever imagine. She loved Nature and animals, just like you, so I'm certain Gale is having a wonderful time working with the animals that have crossed over. I see both of you constantly surrounded by unbelievably beautiful, brilliantly colorful flowers. Hawaii is the place here in this dimension that resembles closest what you see all of the time. That's the "picture" that you always send me when you want me to "see" you. I love it! Anyway, Honey, pop in to visit your dad and let him feel your warmth and love. 11 August will be a sad day of remembrance for him - his thoughts will be on Gale. I love you, Honey. Talk to you later.

- Mom

Hi, Honey!

Today is 7 July 2007, and it's supposed to be the luckiest day of the century. Today is the day that all of our big dreams come true. Today is a good day to count our blessings, and one of my many blessings is having you and Jessica as my daughters. Having you both in my life enriched it so much and made me a better person. I love you and miss you, Cyndi, but I know that you're always with me. I can feel your love and good humor whenever you come to visit - the cats are always aware of your sweet presence, too. I know that you're having a wonderful time on the other side, and you worry about how we're doing over here. We're doing fine. Of course, we still have the mundane concerns and nuisances that life in this dimension entails - going to work, paying bills, etc. But knowing that this is NOT the "real" world, and that this is transitory in nature, makes it alot easier to deal with. As Sylvia Browne says in her books, we're here to learn and develop spiritually; we should do good, shut up and then go Home. You've noticed that since you left last June, I've been doing alot of reading and thinking - your passing has helped me grow. Thank you for that, Honey. I thank God everyday for every blessing He has given me and will give me. I know you like the new house I've been looking at. God willing, we'll be moving into it this time next year. And you know that there will be a bedroom for you - it'll have all of your beloved possessions set up for you so that you'll feel comfortable whenever you visit us there. That will be Jessi and Chuck's bedroom whenever they come to Phoenix to visit me. The new house will have a bedroom set aside for Marcus, too. The house is huge - twice as big as Casa Bella, with plenty of room for all my family and friends to stay when they're here in town visiting. You know me, I always dream big. That's what I always taught you and Jessi - the only limitations you have are those you place on yourselves. I love you. Tell Gale and everyone over there I said, "Hi!" Talk to you later.

- Mom

Hi, Honey -

Today is the 1 year anniversary of your passing. One year ago you left us here and returned Home to the other side of the veil. Can't believe it's been a year already. On one hand it feels as though you have been gone so long. At the same time, it feels like it was only last night that we said "good-be" to each other, and you and Jessi jumped into your Toyota 4Runner to head up to Colorado. It was a year ago, at 6:40AM that I got the call from Jessi on her cell-phone; she woke me up to tell me that she was NOT okay, and that you had had an accident. One year ago that the New Mexico highway patrolman told me that Jessi was fine, but that you had not survived the rollover accident. In fact, when Jessi first called me, you were already gone. Now, everytime I drive past that gas station near my home, I remember seeing you for the last time as you walked toward your SUV. Our last words to each other were "I love you!" And I'm sure over the past year you have seen, heard and felt just how much you were, and ARE, loved. One of the results of your death was that, once again, I learned just how strong I am in being able to handle the tough things life has thrown my way. Been through alot in my life - divorces, financial hardships, the loss of both of my parents, and being with your dad, Raymond, when he lost both of his parents. But, without a doubt, the worst thing I have ever endured, was losing you, my beloved older daughter. Another thing I learned was just how strong my faith in God and His Angels is - your death drew me even closer to God. My friends at work ask me how I was able to deal with your death so well and was able to get on with my life. I told them the truth - it was, and is, my faith in God and His Angels. And it is my absolute knowledge that you are alive and well, living a joyful, active life on the other side. I know for a fact that I am in contact with you, you speak to me all of the time, and it is NOT my imagination or the wishful thinking of a grieving mother. Another thing that your untimely passing brought me (i.e., untimely to ME, although God and His Angels were certainly aware of your imminent departure) was the desire to know where you went and what you were experiencing. I finally started reading all of the metaphysical books I've collected over the years. Bottomline, I needed to know that my little girl was still alive and okay. Now, I do know. It's no longer just hope or speculation. You are Home, and you're waiting for the rest of us to join you and our other loved ones who have passed over. While I still mourn your death and departure from this physical existence, I celebrate your "graduation" from this dimension and your beautiful life "over there". Life on Earth isn't called a "veil of tears" for nothing. There is no such thing as an "afterlife", because it's all one life and it's eternal. Over there, where you are, is Home, it's where we all came from, and it's where we all go back to once we've accomplished our mission here. You left last year because it was time - you threw away that cane you no longer needed and went Home. You accomplished so much in your short 31 years here, learned so much and had such a positive impact on the lives of so many people. You were my beloved daughter and my best friend. You were such a blessing in my life. I love you and miss you so much. Say "hello" to Gale for me. And I'm glad you're with your grandfather, my dad, over there. I miss him, too. Now you can understand the physical suffering he endured in this life, because of the painful degenerative arthritis you endured. I love him - he was a human being doing the best he could, just like all of us. He'll do much better in his next lifetime on this side. Because God knew you were going Home soon, He gave us that beautiful vacation in Hawaii last May, and that wonderful last month together before you died on 23 June 2006. Even though I know I still have many years to live before it's time for me to go Home, I'm looking forward to getting there and being with you again. In the meantime, keep communicating with me and my friends. And keep sending "signs" to Jessi, too, so she'll know you're around her, still looking out for her like the loving big sister you always were. I love you, Honey. Talk to you later!

- Mom

Happy Birthday, Cyndi!

Today, 12 May 2007, was your 32nd birthday. Yes, even on the "other side", you still have birthdays! And I know you enjoy that, knowing that you're still loved and acknowledged. My friends and I had a wonderful birthday dinner with you at the Red Lobster tonight. Carol and John Hogue, Carol Bevis, Gwen Mayhue, Cinda and Mike Robbins, and me. We all were there to celebrate with you, Honey. I know you got a kick out of it when I set a place for you at our table and had your Photograph sitting there. We could all feel your presence, especially when you tried to blow the candles out on your little birthday cake. John had to give you a little help finally getting all of the candles blown out. It was a wonderful little celebration. That was a beautiful birthday card that Carol gave you. I know you really liked it. And just like I promised you last year, we're going to Hawaii again. Next Tuesday, Carol, Gwen and I are flying to the Big Island of Hawaii, back to the same beautiful resort that you and I stayed at last May. We're going to continue your birthday celebration there. And I got the message about the white sandals you want me to buy for you. I'm going to buy them and have their "footprints" photographed on the beach, just as you requested. We'll pretend they're your footprints and that you're walking with me on the beach in beautiful Hawaii. I know you'll be there with me - you'll find some way to let your presence be known, as usual! I love you and miss you, Honey. Almost a year since you left us here on this side of veil. Can't believe how fast time has flown. Of course, where you are now, there is no time. Talk to you later, Honey. We're going to have fun in Hawaii, just like we did last year! I love you!

--Mom

On monday of this week my 4 year old daughter was brought to the hospital for a severe cut on her back. During the operation to close the wound her heart rate dropped and they had to provide her with a oxegen bag to help her breath. It was one of the most horrifying experiences of my life. When I came to work today I received an update notice from Cynthia's guest book. I have not received one of those in months. I know it was a sign from her that she is doing well and living with God in his kingdom. It really was a message from her as if to say that she is looking out for all of us. Thank you Cyndi!

Missing you daughter Cyndi,
If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I would walk right up to heaven and bring you back again. There were no farewell words spoken and no time to say goodbye.
You were gone before I knew it and only God knows why.
My heart still aches with sadness and secret tears still flow.
You will never be forgotten, I pledge to you a special place within my heart is where you will always stay.
Loving you always,
Dad

Cyndi, I still think at times I'm in another world. It has been very hard for me to believe that you left this world and went to a new city, a new life, starting over. I have missed talking with you and enjoying your company when you visited.
Yes, this past year I did not accept that you left this world. I was at hopes that you took a vacation and did not tell me when you were coming back to Colorado.
You have always been such a nice person, helping others. I know you felt you had to leave this world early to show and guide Gale the way to the new land. We all love you dearly.
It really doesn't matter where you go in life or what you do....It's who you have beside you.
I still call to you, I love you and I miss you. May your new life be at its best.
Happy Happy Birthday to you on May 12th!! God broke our hearts to prove to us, he only takes the best!
Love you my sweet child,
Daddy

Hi, Honey!

Wednesday, 21 Feb 2007, was my birthday and I knew that you would do something, or leave something for me to find, as a gift. You always remembered my birthday. Athena Bonner, one of my co-workers, and the lady to whom I gave your sewing machine, patterns, and fabrics, after you "told" me to, gave me a beautiful pillow that she had sewn. She told me that she was "inspired" to choose the fabric with the dolphins, and she was "inspired" to bring it to me on my birthday. (I'd never told Athena that you loved dolphins.) I know without a doubt that the inspiration came from you, Cyndi, and that, through Athena, you were giving me the pillow as my birthday present. It's something you would have sewn for me yourself if you were still on this side of the veil. You made sure that the sewing machine and materials went to someone who could complete that project for you! Thank you, Honey. I was especially touched by the words Athena had embroidered across the bottom of the pillow: "In Loving Memory". I know you had "inspired" her to do that, too. I feel your love around me all the time, and I knew you would do something extraordinary for my birthday! That pillow is extraordinary! I love you and I miss you. Please give my love to Gale, too. I know she's doing well "over there", and that you are both very happy, leading joyful, exciting lives with God and His Angels.

- Mom

Hi, Honey -

Well, it's 2007. We're into a New Year. I watched the usual Dick Clark New Year's Eve countdown at Times Square on TV. This year, it was just me and the three cats. Missed not having your physical presence there with us. Missed not hearing your funny comments as we watched the show together. I even miss seeing your Toyota 4Runner in the garage. Your SUV died in the accident with you - I imagine you driving along in it on the Other Side. You loved that vehicle, and you loved driving it. Have a Happy New Year "over there", Cyndi. Needless to say, Jessi and I miss you alot. I love you. Whenever you can, keep sending me signs that you're doing okay. Bye-bye, for now, Honey. I love you and I miss you, my beloved daughter and best friend.

- Mom

Hi, Honey -

Missed not having you here with me for Thanksgiving. And now it's December already. Almost 7 months since you left this side of the veil. Christmas is just around the corner. But it doesn't feel the same. This is the first Christmas in 31 years that you won't be here to enjoy it with me and your sister. We both miss you so much. Even though I know we're in spiritual contact, I'm still waiting to "see" you. I know you're living an exciting, active life on the Other Side. Just remember to pop in and visit me once in awhile. Enjoy the holidays with God and the Angels. I love you, Cynthia. I'm posting the photo of the wreath that your Aunts Bonnie and Kathy bought for your services. I'm glad they used your high school photo. You were, and ARE, so beautiful. I know you were there at your services - it was funny when you knocked your photos and the collage picture over. Everyone there realized that there was no gust of wind - it was YOU. Letting us know that you are still alive and well. You still have your wicked sense of humor! Bye for now, Honey

-- Mom

Cynthia -

Yesterday was the 3-month anniversary of your passing. I still miss seeing you. I still miss your physical presence. I always will. I thank God that I have spiritual contact with you. That makes your absence a little easier. I love you so much, my beautiful daughter. And now that your stepmother, Gale, is over on that side of the veil, at least you have her to keep you company. Please continue to visit me in spirit and in my dreams. Your communications remind me that you are very much alive and well, and living a happy, active life "over there". I know that you miss me, your dad, your sister and nephew. And I know that you love all of us, too, because I can feel the love that you send us. I've asked the Angels to protect you and keep an eye on you until I can get over there. As you know, I still have quite a few years to go. But it'll seem like no time at all to you, now that you're in a place where there is no time or space. Good-bye for now, Cyndi. I love you, Honey!

- Mom

Dear Cynthia: your courage in facing your physical challenges in life inspired me and gave me strength to face mine, which by comparison were not so great after all. I thank you for that. You are a truly remarkable individual and an inspirational spirit.



Dear Jessica: Though we do not know each other well, the joy you bring your mother is a beautiful thing to witness. May you be a great comfort to each other as you adjust to such an unexpected and tragically sad time.



Dear Marcus: You are the light in your mother, grandmother, and Auntie Cynthia's eyes - may you always know how much you are loved and watched over by all of them, from wherever in the universe they may be.



Dearest Sam - my dearest friend, my best friend, how I wish I could ease your and your families sorrows and burdens thru this worst of times, but, that is not how the universe works, nor how the Angels allow - each of us is destined to have both good and bad, happy and sad, elation as well as pain, sorrow, and suffering. Thank the Angles, though, for allowing those of us that love you so much, to be able to pray for you and your family, for the strength you need to see you thru this horrible time, to do as much as each of us is able and capable of doing, in person, in mind, in heart, and in spirit. Lean on me all you want - Cynthia gave me strength by allowing me to see how she dealt with her challenges, allow me to give some of that strength back to you now that you need it so much - it came from her in the first place - and rightfully belongs to you.

Cynthia -



You've been gone a month already. On one hand, it seems like you've been gone for such a long time. But when I realize it's been only a month. . . I'm ready for you to come back home now. You've been away long enough. This is so surreal. I keep waiting for you to walk in the door. I want to see you and talk to you about how your day at work went. I want you to sit and watch television with me, so that we can laugh and talk about our favorite shows. Our house is so empty without you. I miss you so much. I love you, Honey.



- Mom

Sam, I was so very sorry to hear of your loss. It's not supposed to be this way. I wish I could say something to make a difference in your sorrow. You made a great difference to me when I lost my brother. You lifted the burden from my heart and I wish I could do the same for you. I know your faith runs very deep. May you find comfort in the knowledge that Cynthia is with God waiting for the rest of us.

Dear Sam, Jessie, and Marcus,

I'm SO saddened to hear about Cynthia. Please accept my condolences. I know how much Cynthia is loved and will be missed.



Jessie, when your mom and I worked together, I heard nothing but how much she loves you, Cynthia, and Marcus. You are the bright lights in her life. I am so sorry to hear about your sister. Just know that you remain in my thoughts and prayers.



Marcus, I am so sorry to hear about your Auntie Cynthia. She'll always be with you.



Sam, you were a source of comfort and hope through the death of my uncle, let me be the same for you.

Though I was not with you in body, my thoughts and prayers have been with you since Carol so graciously informed those of us who are not in the AFB loop. My heart broke for you when I received the news. I wish I could have been there for you. I've asked others to put you and your family on their prayer lists as well. I pray you feel the love and support others are sending you,even if you do not know them personally. I know Cynthia will always be a beautiful light in your life and now she's shining in her full glory. God Bless!



With my sincerest sympathy,

Cheri



p.s. The beach and ocean are healing. If you need to get away for while-NC is a short plane ride away.

This is so difficult...Sam, you gave everything to your girls...in return, they gave you their love and respect which would make any parent proud. Memories you hold dear of Cynthia will always be with you. My deepest sympathy as you make it through one day at a time.

Sam, Jessica and Marcus,

A life well-lived goes on into eternity, not only as the soul flies freely to join the Heavenly Host, but also in the heart, thoughts and actions of those who loved that individual during life in this dimension. Cynthia lived a vibrant life, full of spirit and courage, whether performing Quality at a company or striving successfully to overcome physical challenges.

Cynthia made an unforgettable impression on all who met her or heard of her from family and friends. She lives on in our hearts and in those of us who emulate her steadfast example.

May God hold you and all her loved ones close and comfort you with loving memories of her stay among us.

Love to you, Jessica and Marcus,

Cynthia -



You were the kind of daughter any parent would have asked for - so loving, compassionate and thoughtful. You were my best friend and the person who loved me the most. I could always depend on you for an honest opinion. You were sincere, real, and genuine. There was nothing phony about you. I love you and I miss you so much. I know that your beautiful spirit is still with me, but I miss your physical presence. No one expects to outlive their children. You lived only 31 years, but you did more in those 31 years than most people do in 60, 80, or 90 years of living. You were God's gift to me, and I was so lucky to have been your mother. I love you, Honey.

So sorry to hear of the loss. Our thoughts and prayers are with you at this time of tragedy.

My payers are with your Family, Cynthia was a very sweet person, she enjoyed helping others and always had a smile on her face, she will be missed at American Express.

Sam,



Cynthia was born 2 months before my son. The guest book shows that you have many friends around the world--it must give you great comfort. I did not know Cynthia, but I can see that she was a good and compassionate person. Please accept my deepest condolences.

Sam, I never knew your daughter but you must have really loved her to initiate this guest book online. Just remember she'll always be right there by your side whenever you need her so don't think about her being gone.

I am deeply sorry for your loss. Cynthia was a wonderful person who was full of life. May God bless your family through this difficult time and always, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Sam-

I am deeply sorry for your loss and my heart goes out to you at this time and in the days ahead. I hope that each day gets easier for you.

Though we only knew eachother for a short time, it is so strange not seeing Cynthia every morning at work. She was an extremely kind person and she will be missed a great deal. My condolences go to her family for their loss.

Cynthia, was a excellent person and an extraordinay co-worker. She was always friendly with a smile on her face. We will miss you here at American Express.

Time heals most wounds, but this is a wound that will never heal. I myself, have lost a child, and there is no greater loss in the world for anyone, like that of your own child. My deepest heartfelt sympathy for you on your loss. Cyn was my teammate and we did share quite a few laughs. She was really a neat person. I wish you comfort.

Sam -

I never had the opportunity to meet your daughter, but knowing her mother tells me what type of amazing person she was. Please accept our deepest sympathy on your loss and know our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Larry Chase and family

Cynthia was a beautiful spirit that I felt privledged to know. Her LOVE for animals was inspiring and she will be sorely missed by all of us at American Express. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.

i pray that God bless you and your family at this time..take one day at a time..

My thought and prayers are with you. I am so sorry for your loss.

Sam, There are no words to express my sympathies at the loss of your daughter Cynthia. May you find comfort in your memories and in knowing there are many who are thinking and praying for you at this difficult time.

Sam - You are in my prayers.

Sam,

I cannont express how my heart is sadden for you and your family. This lost is beyond measure. May the Lord hold you close.

My thoughts and prayers are with you in your time of grief. May your memories bring you comfort.

May the Lord bless you and keep you. May He make His face to shine upon you and give you peace.....We'll miss you Cindy.

Sam, Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and your family.