Karl Gerber Obituary

Mom is with you now - may you both rest forever in peace.

Miss you Dad

Remembering my father 13 years gone never forgotten ❤

Dear Uncle Karl, I know you were Gus to others, but to family you were always Karl. I've thought of you through the years. The only times I remember seeing you were when I was very little, not even school age, at the farm near Everson, WA, when you were still in high school; at your brother Everett's and sister-in-law Rose's funerals; and at grandma's, your mom's funeral in the 1980s in Eastern Washington. Aunt Rose collected a lot of photos and information on our Gerbers before there were computers to do the work. I copied and saved a lot it. This is one of my favorite photos of you. It must have been a school picture. If your son and/or daughter see this message and would like to know some family, I hope we can find a way to connect. With fond thoughts, Love, Kathy

Hi Dad,
This will be the last time I write you here. I will continue to write you privately and speak to you through my prayers all the time. I pray for Mom to find peace one day and find her way back. She truly misses and loves you very very much. I continue to wish within myself and regret so much but I will have to find peace within myself one day soon maybe longer I guess no matter how long it takes. I pray daily to the Lord because it is the thing to do and selfishly for myself to keep going day to day and ease the hurt somehow. I know you are at peace at last and I will see you again one day, smiling and glad to see me too. I love you Dad, I wish you could have stayed longer.

Always your loving daughter,

Hey Old Man,
You used to smile when I called you that. I went to your gravesite this weekend (Easter) and left you a little something I made. I'm sorry your temporary marker says something other than US Army but they tell me they have fixed that for now. I'll make sure they get it right. I miss Mom but shes grieving on her own you know her better than anyone. I can't wait for the spring when the grass will be green around you. I do what I can everyday to cope Dad buts its harder than anything I have ever done. Today is not a good day but I will get through. I couldn't go to work I needed time for you and my thoughts/heartaches. I hope tomorrow will be better. I know you are at peace now and free of pain and anger finally. I wished for many more years with you and more time to do the right thing. Everyday is a gift and I wasted so many of mine and yours and I'm sorry. I know your forgive me but I'm having trouble forgiving myself. I love you Dad.

Hi Dad,
I can't believe its been 3 weeks since you left. Seems like an eternity ago and yet seems like yesterday. The pain of losing you is unbearable, I never understood the pain of losing a beloved parent until now. I never thought you would leave so soon, I thought we would have all this time to catch up on all those lost years between us. I'm so sorry we had the distance that we did for so long, it was so stupid now that I have so much time to look back and hurt over it all over and over again. I know it doesn't help to keep looking back but regret and guilt are my best friends right now, hopefully not for long. I have asked God for forgiveness for what I put you through. Rest in peace Dad, hope the fishing is great there. I know Muffy is right beside you too. I love you and miss you so much.

Dad,

Its me again. Everyday I experience something that reminds me of you, this morning it was a song on the radio that made me hurt so much I could barely see to drive. I guess its going to be this way from now on and I have to get used to it. I'm dealing with alot of issues within myself like I talked with you about that day in ICU when I don't think you even knew I was there but I pray that you did. People keep telling me that time will heal and things will get better but thats impossible to grasp right now. I know that you are painfree now and walking proud alongside our Lord in the mountains, probably fishing somewhere beautiful like Taylor Lake.

That will somehow have to bring me peace someday. Until then, I'll be right here reminding you how lucky I was to have you here on earth and how I must deal with the fact I didn't have the time with you that I should have made happen. I love you dearly Dad. Be at peace.

Dad,

Its been over a week since you left. I wrote a long note to you here some time ago, I will write another and try to remember what I typed through all the tears if it does not show up soon. Computers, eh? I know. I love you Dad and miss you very much. Nothing I can put into words can describe this pain and loss in my heart.

It was nice to know you and be able to take care of you 2 times a week

Dad,

You are finally at peace and no longer suffering in this world. I know the Lord is with you now and Mom and I have to find peace within ourselves knowing this. I know this life didn't bring you all you wanted but the next one with God by your side will. Please somehow find forgiveness me for not fulfilling your dreams of the kind of daughter you imagined. I know that I am now and I pray every day that I had another chance to show you that I am someone you can be proud of and who loved her father dearly. I struggle with this everyday and it tears me apart. I wish we could have found harmony but I know we will all be together again one day and it will be Heaven. I love you Daddy, I always have and I always will and I know that deep within your heart you always knew nothing else. I will do my best for Mom but she and I miss you terribly and its so difficult and heartbreaking to be here without you. The pain is more than we can bear. I never imagined you would ever leave us so soon. I know they say that time will help heal and forgiveness will come but right now it seems impossible to imagine.

I'm sorry they did not get your name right, it should be AUGUST, like the summer month you loved so much to be in the mountains, your second home and the one you wanted for your FIRST. I'm so glad that you took the time to be there every chance you had. Thats where I know you will spend eternity with our Holy Father. God bless you Dad, I love you and miss you very much.