Robert Woodworth Obituary

Rob, This probably will be my last entry, as I am packing up the computer. I put in 57 entries for you, one for each year of your precious life. I can't believe you have been gone almost a year. When I was at a low point in my life, you picked me up, dusted me off, and got me going again. Though you are gone, I still feel I am representing you as your wife. I take this very seriously and still want to make you proud of me. You gave me confidence, you helped me bloom, you let me experience love. How often I wonder, did I do anything worthwhile for you? People say to let go of those who have left this world. To each his own. I still hold on fast to you and what you did for me. I love you a hundred million times over. Missing you. ~ Tam

Rob, It's not that I can't think of anything to say; It's that nothing I say can really express the sadness and loneliness I feel without you, and the love I will always feel for you. You've been gone nearly a year, but I still miss you every minute of every day. After all, you let go of me - I didn't let go of you. You will always be my husband, my son, my father, my coach, my confident, my best friend. I miss all parts of you and especially "character." The only thing that consoles me is that I know I loved you, even though I made mistakes and maybe didn't know how to love you the way you needed. No one can ever take that away from me. I will never stop loving you, missing you, and thinking of you. Tam

Rob, I will be moving soon and only making a few more entries here. I will still be writing you, just not in here. Sometimes I still feel so close to you; most times you are so far, too far away. I realize now how complex you were. Each picture I have of you shows a different side. I miss all of you and little parts of you come to the forefront of my thoughts each day. I long to laugh with "Character" again, to hear your Boy Scout bird calls, to feel your little boy excitement about little things, to share everyday moments. Living with you was like living with a lot of different people, and I miss all those friends rolled into you, my best friend for always. -Yoda, ET, Tamera, Scarlett, Georgous, Tam

Sadly, I never realized how beautiful the world was, with you in it, until you were gone. I wish I would have known how to give you the magic you gave me. Still looking for bits of magic you might have left behind. - Tam

Rob, You would ask me so many questions I didn't know how to answer. I still don't have any answers and I can't express in words the unfillable void I have without you and the love I will always feel. I think what Sparkle would say sums it up, simply, "Catman, It was nice when you were here." We love and miss you, and I miss those nice days.

"The world is too quiet without you nearby." - Lemony Snicket.

Rob, I've been listening to one of your favorite CDs, Poison, especially your favorite song, "Something to Believe In." I know it's too late, but I want you to know I believed in you. I don't think you really realized that, and I'm sorry I didn't know how to express this to you in a way you could understand. I just thought you would know. I know you believed in me, and that was the "wind beneath my wings" all those years. You were the only person who did, and I thank you for that. I pray that, along the way, you found the real "something to believe in" that saved you, spiritually. If so, the hard times are worth it, and I still believe in you. Love, Tam

Rob would have turned 58 today. Now I am older than he will ever be. I know he would have liked staying young and handsome forever. Rob, I used to say to you, "You are my small boy in a big body." How I miss that boy. I am going to eat apple pie and ice cream, your favorite, to honor your birthday today and remember as many happy memories as I can. That won't be hard, they come to mind all the time. I pray you are having a perfect, beautiful day. I thank God that 58 years ago, you were born, and that I got to know you. I miss you, My Sweet Boy.

"You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." From the movie, Hook. Rob, I'll never give up waiting to see you again. Love you the most.

Rob, I remember the glow you gave me from when we first met, a thrill. You thought it left me but it never did. It is with me still. I still have a crush on you. Tam

Rob, if there is any way, I wish you could let me know you are out there, not just alright but awesome! I miss you, Tam

"Real love is not based on romance, candlelight dinners, and walks along the beach. In fact, it is based on respect, compromise, care and trust." - Quotepix.com. Believe it or not, Rob, I think we had real love down. I will never stop loving you, Partner. Tam

Rob, As I pray every day, I pray you are in God's arms under angel wings; your wounds are all healed, your voids all filled, you are surrounded by beauty, embraced by love. May everything there be beyond your most wild expectations. More than anything, just hoping you are happy and loved. Will always love you here.

Wish I could spend Friday night with you, even just watching TV and talking. I miss just hanging out with you. Love, Tam

I'm at work today. Sundays are always hard days for me, as I am so lonely for you, Rob. I think back on our life together. It seems like much of the time we were apart, me working, doing chores, running errands. How I wish I could have had more time just with you, my sweet guy. Then, I remembered that wherever I was then, you were were always with me, Rob, always on my mind and in my heart. I was always thinking of you, doing things for you (it was all for you), and looking forward to seeing you at the end of each day. Wherever I was, you were always out there. I must remember that you are still out there. You are still with me, out there in another dimension. I just don't get to see you like I used to at the end of the day. You will always be with me until the beautiful day we get to be together again. Missing you today.

Today would have been Rob and my 15th wedding anniversary. How much I wish he were here with me. We weren't big on celebrating things. Now, I wish we would have celebrated more. When we got married it was a Friday, August 4, 2000. We went down to the courthouse and paid $10 and the gal gave me the marriage certificate to fill out myself! Afterwards, we ate hotdogs from a cart on the courthouse lawn. Nothing fancy but a sweet memory. Every time I eat a hotdog, I remember it. Rob, you'll always be my husband, and I will always love you. Wish I could have spent the day with you. Tam

"Thou art gone from my gaze like a beautiful dream. And I seek thee in vain by the meadow and stream." - George Linley. Rob, I walk daily, some places that we walked together; some places remind me of times when we were together (San Miguel and Castle West, I had certain walks I went on back then). I walk these walks lost in lovely memories. I have to admit, I look for little signs that you are there somewhere and that you still remember me and love me. Though you are not here, physically, I never take a walk without you, you are always there in my thoughts and by my side. It's still you and me against the world. I love you, Tam

Rob would sometimes say to me, "You are a refined woman." What a refined man he was. He always kept himself up. When he did household tasks, he always did them thoroughly. He never did anything sloppily or halfway. I know this was his work ethic, also. He loved simple things of beauty. Though he would always say he wasn't "book smart," he had a high intellect, had knowledge about a lot of things, and was always learning. I was so lucky to have such a refined, noble husband and friend. Cherishing my memories of Rob today and everyday.

I would give anything if I could go back in time and spend more time with Rob. I worked at very demanding place, and always felt I couldn't take off for one reason or another. For many years, I was only working there because of Rob, because it was a good job with benefits. If I could do things over, I would have taken time off on a regular basis or would have gotten a job where it easier to get time off. I'll always regret that I didn't give Rob more of the most precious gift that we can give each other, our time and attention. I so wish I could have had more special moments with Rob, even though I am blessed with many happy memories. Rob, what I wouldn't give to see you today. Missing you. Luvu4ever.

Rob was my "home." I feel I am destined to forever wander until I get to be with him again. Wish I could "phone home." - ET

Rob, Forgot to mention that we had a religious service for you at the celebration of life last week. A chaplain spoke and Lyle also got up and spoke. I got up and thanked you for all you did for me in life, which really can't be expressed in words, though I tried. I wrote my portion and read it. Rob, You gave me a life. I read a poem I had written for you. I'm so glad we could all honor you and the contributions you made in your life. I think your most important contribution was giving and receiving love. Thank you for letting me be one of the people you loved. Luvumorrie.

Rob, Last night we had your celebration of life. It was held at The Secret Garden which was absolutely beautiful. A lot of people came out, your brother, my brother, sister, Mike McCoy, Michelle, and many other friends, old and new. Aunt Jessie had sent 17 pictures, and I got some of them blown up. I tried to make things for places you worked. Joel, a man from St. Francis let me borrow cups, a tee shirt, and a big picture of St. Frances from the 80s, probably when you worked there. People from Pennsylvania and Michigan sent me memorabilia from Fincor. We had a lovely service and a reception afterwards. I wish you could have been there but I hope you know now how much you were loved. We even had Dom Perignon (Sp?) and bagpipes. Wish I could have done more for you when you were here. Luvumorrie.

I met Rob 20 years ago today, June 17, 1995. I was staying with my sister with the plans of saving up money and moving back to MO. I got a job in the kitchen at Union Printers Home. Rob was an assisted living aid there, and he came down to refill juice pitchers. I thought, "What a cute guy!" Then, I told myself that it didn't matter, he'd never look at me. A few weeks later he asked me out. Rob, I wish I could have done more for you, wish I could have known you longer, wish I could have known you sooner. I wish you were still here. If you are happy now, it is worth me going through this pain. I loved you all those years, and I will always love you and miss you. - Till we meet again. Love, Tam

Rob, Sweetman, Honeyman, Mr. Sweet, Angel-haired, Angel, Heart, Silk King, Snuggly, My Boy Scout, My Scandinavian, Specialotte, Catman, Flat Foot, Kingey, Cakie, Character. These were all special sides of you that I loved. I don't think you realized it but nicknames mean love. What I wouldn't give to hear you call me Georgeous or Scarlett. - Tam







Flat Foot, Cakie, Character. You were all those special people to me and more. I don't think you realized it but nicknames mean love.

Memorial Day has never meant much to me until now. Since I didn't have a grave to visit, I wondered how to honor Rob that day. I decided to take yellow roses (represent friendship) around to all the places Rob and I lived and all the special places that we liked to walk. Without Rob in my life, I never would have bloomed. What an important person he was to me and, undoubtedly, many others. Our love and friendship will never end. Luvumorrie.

Rob had a lot of wounds. I wish I would have had the ability to heal them. I found this quote yesterday, "Our wounds are often the openings into the best and most beautiful part of us." - David Richo. Rob was truly a beautiful person. I'm so thankful I got to glimpse his inner beauty. Thank you, God, for that gift.

One of my favorites memories was walking with Rob, and one of our routes was Rock Island Trail. It was so beautiful there, a little bit of country in the city. Sometimes, when I was working, Rob would walk there alone and once almost ran into a buck and his group of females. Now I walk there when I can. A few weeks ago, I saw 3 deer there; one for Rob, one for me, and one for Sparkle. I miss my walking partner but everywhere I walk I take him and precious memories with me. Luvumorrie.

One of Rob's favorite sayings, "I planted a seed." Rob did good things, he nurtured, he did kind deeds. Just because we don't always get to see the end result doesn't mean what was planted didn't bloom, or is about to bloom, or that it isn't still blooming...gloriously. All because of one small seed. Imagining you in continual blooms. Luvumorrie.

"Friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest...It's about who came and never left your side..." - Unknown. Taking you with me to MO.

After we met, when we were apart, I would be homesick for you alone. Now that you have gone on to the other side, I'm always homesick because you will always be my "home." Luvu4evermorrie.

For now we see in a mirror; dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known. - 1 Corinthians 13:12. Awaiting that day! Luvumorrie.

Loved at all times, even the hard times. Still loved forever. - Luvumorrie.

Good friends care for each other, close friends understand each other, but true friends stay forever, beyond words, beyond distance, beyond time. - Unknown.

Rob, It is the season of birth and rebirth. I see you reborn, free of mental and physical pain, surrounded by beauty, embraced by love; and that image comforts my wounded heart and soul. You were and are loved more than you could ever know. Tammy

Catman, Sparkle and I love you and miss you. Love, Catwoman

Rob, my sweet guy, this quote reminds me of our partnership. "And even if everything were to turn out exactly opposite of what I imagine, no malice could ever obscure the glory of having kindled this endeavor." From Don Quixote. You are still my partner in heart. Love always, Tammy

Rob, Today is the first day of Spring and reminds me that you awakened me to the beauty and constancy of true love. Thank you for that priceless gift that I can forever open and remember. I love you, Tammy

Honey Man, The way you left makes me sad but when I think of you, my heart always smiles. Happy memories light a way through my sorrow. Still your devoted wife and friend, Tammy

Rob, I remember so many good things you did for me. Mainly, you rescued me and gave me a life. I could never repay you for that but I hope I did some good for you, too. You were my cheerleader, my moral support, and my reason for doing what I did. I wish I would have been more of a Mary and less of a Martha. I hope you remember the good times, like I do. Still loving you every day. Tammy

Rob, Remember how I would call you my angel-haired guy? You would say, "I wish I were an angel." You are with the angels now. Though I miss you constantly, I know they are taking care of you. Missing you today, Tammy

Mr. Sweet, Without you, I feel like a dinghy adrift on a lonely sea. God is comforting me, and sweet memories of you buoy me. Thanks for the memories. Mrs. Sweet

Rob, "Maybe it's not about the happy ending, maybe it's about the story..." - Unknown. I loved being a part of your story and would do it all again. Happy Valentine's Day to my forever best friend. Love, Tammy

Rob, Happy Valentine's Day to my forever love and best friend. "Maybe it's not about the happy ending, maybe it's about the story." - Unknown. I would do our story all over again. Thank you for sharing your short life with me. Forever best friends, Tammy

Rob, Another of your favorite Bible verses that I am trying to learn. I remember you reciting so many verses. Another good memory. Thank you for learning these and bringing these to my attention. "But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control. Galations 5:22,23 You exhibited many of these on earth, and now I know you have them all. Wish I could see you in person. Till then, all my love. Tammy

Rob, Here is a quote that describes what our love meant to me but I am not sure who wrote it. "To the world you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world." You were my world. I will always love you, Tammy

Rob, Remembering one of your favorite Bible verses today. I was so proud of you memorizing so many verses. "Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praise-worthy - meditate on these things." Philippians 4:8. I love you, Tammy

Rob, Today I had a flat tire. I was overwhelmed without you here to call and help me. The last time I had a flat was in the late 90s when I worked at Penrose Community. I called you, and you and your brother came and fixed it while I was working. I miss you and realize now all the things you did for me through the years. Anyway, it all worked out. Got a tow truck and they took it somewhere, and they fixed it. Without my partner, things are hard but they do get done somehow. I realize now how lucky I was having you. Praying you are warm, safe, and loved. Miss you more than words can convey.

Rob, You were my knight in shining armor driving a pickup truck and, before that, a Mazda and a Saturn. Every time I see a burgandy pickup, I remember you coming to get me. Thank you for all those cold, late night rides, and those rescue rides when I walked too far from home. I loved riding beside you. Love you forever.

Rob, You have lots of other friends out there but I don't think most of them have computers and know how to access this site. A lot of people enjoyed your gregarious spirit and have good memories of you. Especially, me. I miss your "character" routine; that was just our secret. I see you now communing with all your and my loved ones who have passed on before us. Wish I could see you there. Love, Tammy

Rob, I wish I had gotten a chance to see you again. Your old friend,

Honey, It's a very cold New Years Day. Wish we were together drinking hot cups of coffee. Miss most the simple, but special, quality time we had together talking, reading together, watching TV. I'm glad you don't have to endure this hard winter weather. Sending you warm love, Tammy

Rob, It's Christmas but nothing is beautiful or bright for me because you aren't here. Your child-like spirit made everything special and fun, even the humdrum. I miss that so much, but I carry you with me and remember those happy times. I love you, Tammy

Rob, I wish you could know how much you helped me in life, giving me a reason to keep going and to do the best I can. Even though you are gone, you are still inspiring me. Love, Tammy

Sometimes, the most ordinary things could be made extraordinary, simply by doing them with the right people. - Nicholas Sparks

Rob, I love you and wish you were here. It's Thanksgiving. Thank you for being a good husband and best friend for 19 years. I'm thankful I had the time I had with you. Too short but very treasured. Many, many happy memories. Love always, Tammy

I will remember all the glorious times we spent in fellowship around God's Word. Thank you for sharing. Till we meet again at His feet.